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Sunday, January 31, 2010
if u can choose to have a super power, what will u choose? ever since my first pageant, i was certain that i want to be able to read people's thoughts. i want to know how people feel about things and i want to understand how they are like.
Lie, is defined as a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth. it can be for a good cause, whatever it is, its never good to do it. i realised that most of the time, i can read how people feel based on their expression rather accurately. of cuz it can't be compared to the standard potrayed in 'lie to me', however, it is sufficient to know if my friends are sad or unhappy or simply lying straight in my face.
the past week had been pretty disastrous, mainly caused by the lack of sleep. when that happens, i will snapped at small things and that's normal to me. i will not feel bad or felt that its my fault until when i sit down and reflect on what happened in the day before i go to bed. certain damage caused might not be rectified but i do hope that my friends will forgive me eventually. lying, something that i can't tolerate is pretty eminent in our society today. sometimes we lie so much to the point that we become self delusional. on the other hand, there are instances that we lie to protect our friends. we know exactly how he/she will feel if he/she were to know the truth. most of the time i can tell that my friends do that to protect me but somehow it still hurts. maybe they know me better than i know myself.
there are times when i felt that perhaps its better to not be able to read people's expression so much. at the back of my mind, im still not convinced that mind reading is inappropriate to communicate sincerely with friends. when u mind read, u take captive of their thoughts and translate their feelings based on ur own experience and thoughts, as taught in cs100. i agree with that statement partially. what if i have friends who dun like to share and say what they truly feel about certain issues? i need to be able to read them in order to ask them. somehow, most of my close friends belong to this group. i guess generally guys are all like that. ahh well.
went for wake boarding today and it totally rocked. failed for the first 3 times and after which im ready to own the sport. i tried to swerve left and right as well as riding on the wave. its pretty awesome initially but after 5 mins u thighs will be quite strained. nevertheless, i can't wait to go for it again. its totally addictive. found another sport that i think i am good at. hah!!
+++7:25 PM+++
Jesus is Love
Thursday, January 28, 2010
yesterday spent the entire night at hall opening ceremony. for those not from ntu, its where all the 16 halls compete on cheerleading competition. had participated for the past 2 years but somehow this year due to unforseen circumstances, i lost my chance to take part. the feeling of pple cheering for u can be quite addictive. sitting down at the front row watching pple doing their stuff, it didn't excite me as much as when i'm there doing it myself. my whole body felt kind of funny, as tho something is missing and i know y. as much as i would like to deny the fact that im in cheerleading, i love the sport and i'm good at it. i enjoy the company of my friends and i enjoy doing something that i excel at. i tried to convince myself that its okay, i have more time to study but then again, y do i bother to go down and help out if im so desperately trying to study? perhaps this year is different, i got closer to pple from cheer, i fell in love with cheer more cuz i didn't participate.
this mentality somewhat constructed how i become close to people and y do i always have close friends who don't treat me as well as the rest of my other friends, yet i chose to be closer to them. its kind of perplexing in the sense that if u look at it logically, somehow or rather u'll find the statement kind of contradicting. let me elaborate on that statement then. like wad eueu always tell me, ren shi fan jian de. we will always treasure something that we are still trying to get more. this process can be such a pain in the ass but it also cultivates a sense of longing for something good to emerge out of it. putting into context of cheerleading, its like waiting for the results to be out after u finished ur performance, knowing that u done ur best.
life doesn't always go the way we want and there's nothing u can do about it. however, it must be also noted that no matter what happens, i believe that there's a purpose of it as well as an opportunity to learn from it. the world doesn't stop for u when shit happens, that's the truth. therefore, we should simply take it and move on. as for friendship, it links with ur emotions that's where things become complicated. it can't be treated lightly as saying something like 'friends come and go'. the statement is true in itself but bringing into context of the usage, there is definitely more than meets the eye. the point that im trying to drive at is whether u have done ur best as a good friend, as a boy friend, as a brother.
it is important to constantly ask ourselves if the things that we say or do to our friends will hurt them. to determine so, put urself in their shoes and try to picture how they decode ur message. putting urself in their shoes also refers to thinking in terms of how they will think based on ur understanding of their character. of cuz, this task can be exhausting. ask urself if that friend is worth it. it takes a lifetime to build a friendship but one second to crush it. seems quite dumb y pple bother to still make friends knowing the pain of it all. if u are able to see the benefits of a strong and solid friendship, then i guess that previous statement will sound like what a loser will say.
let me emphasize again that love is a choice. somewhere down the road, feeling will fade. all u are left with are memories that we shared as a group or as individuals. will these memories help u to remedy the situation or simply for u to stay dormant? loving others is a lifelong learning program. it is best learnt through experiences and giving. as the saying goes, love to give, give to love. its a two way thing.
ahh lost in thoughts. sometimes just hope tt my close friends will treat me a lil better. hah.
+++12:30 PM+++
Jesus is Love
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
went out with eliel seth and elisha for dinner at carl's junior jp today. after eating, they walked back to ntu with me and we chilled at adm awhile. we had to go to the toilet first but the adm building was locked so had to get a student to open the door for us. saw this guy walking inside so we asked him to open for us. he didn't really looked at us and as he was walking off, he pointed middle finger us. i officially condemn that guy!
+++1:18 AM+++
Jesus is Love
Sunday, January 24, 2010
after the first stayover at gj's room, my ear felt kind of funny, as though im experiencing a pressure difference and my ear is blocked. hopefully this is temporary.
+++7:40 PM+++
Jesus is Love
Thursday, January 21, 2010
crap its raining and i am having lecture in 20 mins time. ah well.. i think recently i've become abit absent minded, might be due to the lack of sleep. was suppose to have lesson till 630pm but i thought i finished class at 330pm. completely forgot about my maths lab after the nano physics class and i didn't even know there's tutorial to do. class ended early, thankfully, was able to rush down to hall 15 on time for gj's birthday surprise. in fact, had time to talk to hilda abit bout some personal stuff. it seems that our clique has some issues and i think i can resolve it one by one.
there were a total of 10 people who went to sunset to eat the extremely spicy buffalo wings. we called in two cabs and gj plus zk's friend took the motorcycle. i was with zk and 2 other peeps whom i do not know that well. however, at least zk will talk to me so it wasn't that bad. on my part, i felt that once again i missed the opportunity to take the initiative to start a conversation with pple that i am not familiar with. the ride there was quite awkward, two guys beside me were playing monopoly on the iphone and i was kinda invisible there. this feeling became abit nostalgic and for some reason it brought back a little of my days in poly.
we were the first to arrive, gj revealed that it wasn't much of a surprise cuz he heard of that place. went in to sit first and we took a peek at the hall of fame. with that in mind, we ordered a plate of lvl 30 wings and lvl 10 wings. 30 is obviously for gj alone and the rest for us. at the table, by the twist of fate i got cornered by pple i do not know that well. when joyce and gang came in, i shot joyce a look to save me but i dun think she caught it. ah well, it's not as though she could do anything. took gj awhile to realised that i felt a little uncomfortable but yea, i was glad that he saved me from that predicament. his friends were really nice and they know my name so i was partially impressed, as in i was never good at remembering names so for someone to remember my name it seems to be a big feat. moving on to the highlight of the day, somehow the restaurant served the spicy buffalo wings really fast and neglected our main courses. since it was there for awhile already, we asked gj to test out the spicyness first. he dipped his finger into the sauce and put it in his mouth. instantaneously, his face turned red and started sweating profusely. he challenged us to try it too but zk issued a challenge to the girls. if all of them were brave enough to try, we'll all do it. that's how we ended up having hell on our tongue for the first time.
the milk on the table did help abit in my point of view but it might be purely psychological. and yes, MILK!! its white and disgusting. i had to hold my breath while drinking it. argh!! next, all of us took a lvl 10 wing each while waiting for the food to come. we followed the video that we watched the day before that, that is to deboned the chicken before we start eating. while doing so, beer were served so there's more coolant for the tongue. after 5 mins into eating the wings, the water on the table were high in demand and within minutes we had to ask for refill. since gj didn't eat, he was gloating and crying at the same time since his wings were 3 times worse than what we had. unfortunately, gloating time lasted for only a short period of time. it was his turn to finish that plate. as a result of consuming the first wing, he was tearing and on the verge of vomitting. went to the toilet to cool off the lips, ate ice to numb the feeling etc. if u think its a little extreme, i dare u to try. after seeing him almost half dead, the guys reached a censesus that it would be impossible for him to finish it so we a few of us had one each. this is what i felt going thru my mind while attempting to finish it:
when the first piece of chicken went into my mouth, in my mind i tell myself that i want to fnish it asap so i stuffed it in piece after piece. however, rate of input does not match with the amount of time i had to chew and swallow. as the chicken lingered in my mouth, i was scared so i dun even want to chew it properly before swallowing it, thats when the beer and milk comes in. by 10 seconds or so, hell demons on my tongue started sawing and my throat was choked up with lava. all i could think of was chafting ice into my mouth so i can feel abit better. this sensation lasted for approximately 10 mins. so there, after going thru all that, i decided to stay away from spicy food for awhile. as i quote from what zk said, i didn't know that food can be that hot! the bill amounted to be almost $300 and gj footed the bill. it was an interesting experience with a costly price tag.
wanted to take a few photos outside the airbase but it was barracaded. then, one lorry came past and we decided to hitch a ride out to the bustop. from there, the girls plus willy went back hall and the rest of us went to holland v to chill and drink abit. as i sat there and listen to their conversations, it was quite interesting because i realised that they got to know each other in OCS, which means its just 3 years back yet they are so close. friendship and relationship is almost similar, they are not measured by time but by the things that pple go through together. however, i still need my close friends to be close to me physically. 
stayed over at gj's room for the second night. we went up to look for joyce, hilda and suann. gj needed to do some waxing since there were patches and its hideous. waxing was tiring and messy. my hands had wax and it was quite difficult to wash it off. suppose to watch a horror show at suann's room but thank god we didn't. i was so tired and so when the girls went to bathe, we went back to sleep.
since im uploading videos, might as well include some from previous outings. but first, here's the waxing.
now for the kbox with joyce and gj singing "wei le ni er huo"
+++1:53 PM+++
Jesus is Love
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
ytd i went over to find joyce to shop for gj's present. at the end of the day, we got quite a harvest i must say. got him a bag, t shirt and a self decorated cake. photos will be up later cuz im in school now, trying to finish up my maths tutorial but ended up here. so there, com lab ain't a conducive place for mugging.
by the time we got back to hall 15, it was already 9 plus. only had an hour plus to do up all the sabo materials. first time acting as cp but i guess it was quite fun but taxing. everyone was busy with mascot stuff so not much pple were there to help. had to boil all sort of nonsense and mash it to form this paste with a stench. the paste consist of ladies finger, radish (white), celery and ginger.
had to fill up a pail of water bombs for washing him up. all in all, it was quite disgusting. gj was nice enough to not get me dirty cuz i had no clothes to change into. at around 1am, it started pouring so i stayed over in his room (air con woooots) and talked till 4am. that's when i had the first dream....
was at some beach playing volleyball with my pageant friends. opposing team had YY and some other girls, cant remember who it was. anyway, i was telling the person beside me that i dun understand why of all people she had to stand in front of me. after the game, she came and talked to me and asked me if i was angry with her. of course i said no and it was well after that, i know i became quite happy after that.
maybe, just maybe that's what i want from her, just to ask if im angry. its not the apology that i want, perhaps just abit more attention. i am such a pathetic loser. haha.
so yea, woke up after willy's 7am alarm rang over a period of 30 frigging minutes. he's such a deep sleeper, similar to gj, both of them seemed completely oblivious to that irritating ringtone. i went for class after bathing and went back to sleep after that, and then the second dream.
was out on a date with christina's friend jaimie. suppose to go for this runway show thingy with her as my partner. we had a fabulous date but ended off with a sad note. can't remember what she said but it got to do with my age. zz
dreams sometimes will reveal what u truly desire and what u are trying to run away from. it brings out what is hidden into the light and it might somehow confuse u with the reality. real or not real, it became abit misty.
can't wait for gj's birthday celebration part ii. time to finish up my tutorial.
+++3:40 PM+++
Jesus is Love
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
this is getting abit weird because my lecturer in class is giving me alot as in ALOT of attention in class. it seems as tho he's only teaching me since he's looking at me most of the time (ah yess.. its a HE). so there, once again, i proved to be a human gay magnet. life sucks. oh yea, gonna celebrate gj's birthday later. will be hanging out at hall 15 most of the time this, for this week at least.
and finally, my resolution for 2010 will be to take more initiative in all the things that i do, especially to meet church peeps whom i've stopped talking to or not so often anymore. this will be my final sem in ntu hopefully, still trying to work things out. pray that i can get an elective by the end of the week. woots~~
i shall start mugging (officially) by this coming monday! kelbert jia you!!
cg is getting exciting too, we are going to train for mt kinabalu trip. anyone interested can contact me. we'll be training for it, starting this sat, at nooby bukit timah hill. vision tea on sunday, BOOMZ!!
+++5:32 PM+++
Jesus is Love
if u can choose to have a super power, what will u choose? ever since my first pageant, i was certain that i want to be able to read people's thoughts. i want to know how people feel about things and i want to understand how they are like.
Lie, is defined as a false statement made with deliberate intent to deceive; an intentional untruth. it can be for a good cause, whatever it is, its never good to do it. i realised that most of the time, i can read how people feel based on their expression rather accurately. of cuz it can't be compared to the standard potrayed in 'lie to me', however, it is sufficient to know if my friends are sad or unhappy or simply lying straight in my face.
the past week had been pretty disastrous, mainly caused by the lack of sleep. when that happens, i will snapped at small things and that's normal to me. i will not feel bad or felt that its my fault until when i sit down and reflect on what happened in the day before i go to bed. certain damage caused might not be rectified but i do hope that my friends will forgive me eventually. lying, something that i can't tolerate is pretty eminent in our society today. sometimes we lie so much to the point that we become self delusional. on the other hand, there are instances that we lie to protect our friends. we know exactly how he/she will feel if he/she were to know the truth. most of the time i can tell that my friends do that to protect me but somehow it still hurts. maybe they know me better than i know myself.
there are times when i felt that perhaps its better to not be able to read people's expression so much. at the back of my mind, im still not convinced that mind reading is inappropriate to communicate sincerely with friends. when u mind read, u take captive of their thoughts and translate their feelings based on ur own experience and thoughts, as taught in cs100. i agree with that statement partially. what if i have friends who dun like to share and say what they truly feel about certain issues? i need to be able to read them in order to ask them. somehow, most of my close friends belong to this group. i guess generally guys are all like that. ahh well.
went for wake boarding today and it totally rocked. failed for the first 3 times and after which im ready to own the sport. i tried to swerve left and right as well as riding on the wave. its pretty awesome initially but after 5 mins u thighs will be quite strained. nevertheless, i can't wait to go for it again. its totally addictive. found another sport that i think i am good at. hah!!
Jesus is Love
Thursday, January 28, 2010
yesterday spent the entire night at hall opening ceremony. for those not from ntu, its where all the 16 halls compete on cheerleading competition. had participated for the past 2 years but somehow this year due to unforseen circumstances, i lost my chance to take part. the feeling of pple cheering for u can be quite addictive. sitting down at the front row watching pple doing their stuff, it didn't excite me as much as when i'm there doing it myself. my whole body felt kind of funny, as tho something is missing and i know y. as much as i would like to deny the fact that im in cheerleading, i love the sport and i'm good at it. i enjoy the company of my friends and i enjoy doing something that i excel at. i tried to convince myself that its okay, i have more time to study but then again, y do i bother to go down and help out if im so desperately trying to study? perhaps this year is different, i got closer to pple from cheer, i fell in love with cheer more cuz i didn't participate.
this mentality somewhat constructed how i become close to people and y do i always have close friends who don't treat me as well as the rest of my other friends, yet i chose to be closer to them. its kind of perplexing in the sense that if u look at it logically, somehow or rather u'll find the statement kind of contradicting. let me elaborate on that statement then. like wad eueu always tell me, ren shi fan jian de. we will always treasure something that we are still trying to get more. this process can be such a pain in the ass but it also cultivates a sense of longing for something good to emerge out of it. putting into context of cheerleading, its like waiting for the results to be out after u finished ur performance, knowing that u done ur best.
life doesn't always go the way we want and there's nothing u can do about it. however, it must be also noted that no matter what happens, i believe that there's a purpose of it as well as an opportunity to learn from it. the world doesn't stop for u when shit happens, that's the truth. therefore, we should simply take it and move on. as for friendship, it links with ur emotions that's where things become complicated. it can't be treated lightly as saying something like 'friends come and go'. the statement is true in itself but bringing into context of the usage, there is definitely more than meets the eye. the point that im trying to drive at is whether u have done ur best as a good friend, as a boy friend, as a brother.
it is important to constantly ask ourselves if the things that we say or do to our friends will hurt them. to determine so, put urself in their shoes and try to picture how they decode ur message. putting urself in their shoes also refers to thinking in terms of how they will think based on ur understanding of their character. of cuz, this task can be exhausting. ask urself if that friend is worth it. it takes a lifetime to build a friendship but one second to crush it. seems quite dumb y pple bother to still make friends knowing the pain of it all. if u are able to see the benefits of a strong and solid friendship, then i guess that previous statement will sound like what a loser will say.
let me emphasize again that love is a choice. somewhere down the road, feeling will fade. all u are left with are memories that we shared as a group or as individuals. will these memories help u to remedy the situation or simply for u to stay dormant? loving others is a lifelong learning program. it is best learnt through experiences and giving. as the saying goes, love to give, give to love. its a two way thing.
ahh lost in thoughts. sometimes just hope tt my close friends will treat me a lil better. hah.
Jesus is Love
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
went out with eliel seth and elisha for dinner at carl's junior jp today. after eating, they walked back to ntu with me and we chilled at adm awhile. we had to go to the toilet first but the adm building was locked so had to get a student to open the door for us. saw this guy walking inside so we asked him to open for us. he didn't really looked at us and as he was walking off, he pointed middle finger us. i officially condemn that guy!
Jesus is Love
Sunday, January 24, 2010
after the first stayover at gj's room, my ear felt kind of funny, as though im experiencing a pressure difference and my ear is blocked. hopefully this is temporary.
had a hiking trip from mac ritchie to bukit timah hill on sat. thank god for the Awesome weather!! our first outing for the year and i think its quite successful. often in times we look out for numbers and even before the executing of the outing, if the number don't match with our own expectation, then chances are that the outing will be called off. however, lately i was thinking through and i realised that i forgot what was the objective of organising an outing. is it for me to have fun or is it for me to get to know the cg better. if so, even if there is only 3 pple who can go, the outing should stay carry on because objective can still be met.
i always wanted to maximise my weekend especially when i got stuck on pulau ntu for the entire wkend. there are of cuz exceptional cases like last week when i will travel out of school to have fun but that's quite rare. in any case, i wanted to cancel the outing if its just 4 pple. i felt that time would be more well spent if i stayed at home and mug, so i smsed those who could make it and gave them the choice. well, good thing we went ahead. hiking was quite interesting because when there's nothing else to do apart from walking forward, we talked.
so then, a bunch of guys walking for 4 hours, discussing how asians and ang mos differ so much in terms of physical abilities such as running and hiking. for some reason, everytime we see someone passing by us, it will be asians going downwards or ang mos going upwards. a stereotype was thus constructed that ang mos are frigging fit or they dun even appear at bukit timah.
when we reached the mid pt of mac ritchie, derric challenged tuan to go bare footed. after awhile, somehow he himself took off his useless canoeing shoes together with joel. so there, we had 3 guys tredding on mud barefooted and 2 normal guys with went ahead with shoes.
the hiking lasted for 4 hrs. we should do this again soon. heh
Jesus is Love
Thursday, January 21, 2010
crap its raining and i am having lecture in 20 mins time. ah well.. i think recently i've become abit absent minded, might be due to the lack of sleep. was suppose to have lesson till 630pm but i thought i finished class at 330pm. completely forgot about my maths lab after the nano physics class and i didn't even know there's tutorial to do. class ended early, thankfully, was able to rush down to hall 15 on time for gj's birthday surprise. in fact, had time to talk to hilda abit bout some personal stuff. it seems that our clique has some issues and i think i can resolve it one by one.there were a total of 10 people who went to sunset to eat the extremely spicy buffalo wings. we called in two cabs and gj plus zk's friend took the motorcycle. i was with zk and 2 other peeps whom i do not know that well. however, at least zk will talk to me so it wasn't that bad. on my part, i felt that once again i missed the opportunity to take the initiative to start a conversation with pple that i am not familiar with. the ride there was quite awkward, two guys beside me were playing monopoly on the iphone and i was kinda invisible there. this feeling became abit nostalgic and for some reason it brought back a little of my days in poly.
we were the first to arrive, gj revealed that it wasn't much of a surprise cuz he heard of that place. went in to sit first and we took a peek at the hall of fame. with that in mind, we ordered a plate of lvl 30 wings and lvl 10 wings. 30 is obviously for gj alone and the rest for us. at the table, by the twist of fate i got cornered by pple i do not know that well. when joyce and gang came in, i shot joyce a look to save me but i dun think she caught it. ah well, it's not as though she could do anything. took gj awhile to realised that i felt a little uncomfortable but yea, i was glad that he saved me from that predicament. his friends were really nice and they know my name so i was partially impressed, as in i was never good at remembering names so for someone to remember my name it seems to be a big feat. moving on to the highlight of the day, somehow the restaurant served the spicy buffalo wings really fast and neglected our main courses. since it was there for awhile already, we asked gj to test out the spicyness first. he dipped his finger into the sauce and put it in his mouth. instantaneously, his face turned red and started sweating profusely. he challenged us to try it too but zk issued a challenge to the girls. if all of them were brave enough to try, we'll all do it. that's how we ended up having hell on our tongue for the first time.
the milk on the table did help abit in my point of view but it might be purely psychological. and yes, MILK!! its white and disgusting. i had to hold my breath while drinking it. argh!! next, all of us took a lvl 10 wing each while waiting for the food to come. we followed the video that we watched the day before that, that is to deboned the chicken before we start eating. while doing so, beer were served so there's more coolant for the tongue. after 5 mins into eating the wings, the water on the table were high in demand and within minutes we had to ask for refill. since gj didn't eat, he was gloating and crying at the same time since his wings were 3 times worse than what we had. unfortunately, gloating time lasted for only a short period of time. it was his turn to finish that plate. as a result of consuming the first wing, he was tearing and on the verge of vomitting. went to the toilet to cool off the lips, ate ice to numb the feeling etc. if u think its a little extreme, i dare u to try. after seeing him almost half dead, the guys reached a censesus that it would be impossible for him to finish it so we a few of us had one each. this is what i felt going thru my mind while attempting to finish it:when the first piece of chicken went into my mouth, in my mind i tell myself that i want to fnish it asap so i stuffed it in piece after piece. however, rate of input does not match with the amount of time i had to chew and swallow. as the chicken lingered in my mouth, i was scared so i dun even want to chew it properly before swallowing it, thats when the beer and milk comes in. by 10 seconds or so, hell demons on my tongue started sawing and my throat was choked up with lava. all i could think of was chafting ice into my mouth so i can feel abit better. this sensation lasted for approximately 10 mins. so there, after going thru all that, i decided to stay away from spicy food for awhile. as i quote from what zk said, i didn't know that food can be that hot! the bill amounted to be almost $300 and gj footed the bill. it was an interesting experience with a costly price tag.
wanted to take a few photos outside the airbase but it was barracaded. then, one lorry came past and we decided to hitch a ride out to the bustop. from there, the girls plus willy went back hall and the rest of us went to holland v to chill and drink abit. as i sat there and listen to their conversations, it was quite interesting because i realised that they got to know each other in OCS, which means its just 3 years back yet they are so close. friendship and relationship is almost similar, they are not measured by time but by the things that pple go through together. however, i still need my close friends to be close to me physically. 
stayed over at gj's room for the second night. we went up to look for joyce, hilda and suann. gj needed to do some waxing since there were patches and its hideous. waxing was tiring and messy. my hands had wax and it was quite difficult to wash it off. suppose to watch a horror show at suann's room but thank god we didn't. i was so tired and so when the girls went to bathe, we went back to sleep.since im uploading videos, might as well include some from previous outings. but first, here's the waxing.
now for the kbox with joyce and gj singing "wei le ni er huo"
Jesus is Love
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
ytd i went over to find joyce to shop for gj's present. at the end of the day, we got quite a harvest i must say. got him a bag, t shirt and a self decorated cake. photos will be up later cuz im in school now, trying to finish up my maths tutorial but ended up here. so there, com lab ain't a conducive place for mugging.
by the time we got back to hall 15, it was already 9 plus. only had an hour plus to do up all the sabo materials. first time acting as cp but i guess it was quite fun but taxing. everyone was busy with mascot stuff so not much pple were there to help. had to boil all sort of nonsense and mash it to form this paste with a stench. the paste consist of ladies finger, radish (white), celery and ginger.
had to fill up a pail of water bombs for washing him up. all in all, it was quite disgusting. gj was nice enough to not get me dirty cuz i had no clothes to change into. at around 1am, it started pouring so i stayed over in his room (air con woooots) and talked till 4am. that's when i had the first dream....
was at some beach playing volleyball with my pageant friends. opposing team had YY and some other girls, cant remember who it was. anyway, i was telling the person beside me that i dun understand why of all people she had to stand in front of me. after the game, she came and talked to me and asked me if i was angry with her. of course i said no and it was well after that, i know i became quite happy after that.
maybe, just maybe that's what i want from her, just to ask if im angry. its not the apology that i want, perhaps just abit more attention. i am such a pathetic loser. haha.
so yea, woke up after willy's 7am alarm rang over a period of 30 frigging minutes. he's such a deep sleeper, similar to gj, both of them seemed completely oblivious to that irritating ringtone. i went for class after bathing and went back to sleep after that, and then the second dream.
was out on a date with christina's friend jaimie. suppose to go for this runway show thingy with her as my partner. we had a fabulous date but ended off with a sad note. can't remember what she said but it got to do with my age. zz
dreams sometimes will reveal what u truly desire and what u are trying to run away from. it brings out what is hidden into the light and it might somehow confuse u with the reality. real or not real, it became abit misty.
can't wait for gj's birthday celebration part ii. time to finish up my tutorial.
Jesus is Love
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
this is getting abit weird because my lecturer in class is giving me alot as in ALOT of attention in class. it seems as tho he's only teaching me since he's looking at me most of the time (ah yess.. its a HE). so there, once again, i proved to be a human gay magnet. life sucks. oh yea, gonna celebrate gj's birthday later. will be hanging out at hall 15 most of the time this, for this week at least.
and finally, my resolution for 2010 will be to take more initiative in all the things that i do, especially to meet church peeps whom i've stopped talking to or not so often anymore. this will be my final sem in ntu hopefully, still trying to work things out. pray that i can get an elective by the end of the week. woots~~
i shall start mugging (officially) by this coming monday! kelbert jia you!!
cg is getting exciting too, we are going to train for mt kinabalu trip. anyone interested can contact me. we'll be training for it, starting this sat, at nooby bukit timah hill. vision tea on sunday, BOOMZ!!
Jesus is Love