Teacher's Diary

Monday, October 27, 2008

Chapter 5: How can a loving God send people to hell?
Most people think a God of judgement can’t be a God of love
I Christianity God is both a God of love and of justice. Many people struggle with this. The believe that a loving God can’t be a judging God. Like most other Christian ministers in our society, I have been asked literally thousands of times, “How can a God of love be also a God filled with wrath and anger? I he is loving and perfect, he should forgive and accept everyone. He shouldn’t get angry.” I always star my response by pointing out that all loving people are sometimes filled with wrath, not just despite of but because of their love. If you love a person and you see someone ruining them- even they themselves- you get angry. As Becky Pippert puts it in her book Hope Has Its Reasons:
Think how we feel when we see someone we love ravaged by unwise actions or relationships. Do we respond with benign tolerance as we might toward strangers? Far from it… Anger isn’t the opposite of love. Hate is, and the final form of hate is indifference… God’s wrath is not a cranky explosion, but his settled opposition to the cancer… which is eating out the insides of the human race he loves with his whole being.
The bible says that God’s wrath flows from his love and delight in his creation. He is angry at evil and injustice because it is destroying its peace and integrity.
The Lord is righteous in all his ways and loving toward all he has made…
The Lord watches over those who love him, but all the wicked he will destroy. (Psalms 145:17-20)
It is at this point that many people complain that those who believe in a God of judgement will not approach enemies with a desire to reconcile with them. If you believe in a God who smites evildoers, you may think it is perfectly justified to do some of the smiting yourself. Yale theologian Miroslav Volf, a Croatian who has seen the violence in the Balkans, does not see the doctrine of God’s judgement that way. He writes:
If God were not angry at injustice and deception and did not make a final end to violence - that God would not be worthy of worship… The only means of prohibiting all recourse to violence by ourselves is to insist that violence is legitimate only when ot comes from God…My thesis that the practice of non-violence requires a belief in divine vengeance will be unpopular with many…in the west…[But] it takes the quiet of a suburban home for the birth of the thesis that human non-violence [results from the belief in] God’s refusal to judge. In a sun-scorched land, soaked in the blood of the innocent, it wwill invariably die… [with] other pleasant captivities of the liberal mind.
In this fascinating passage Volf reasons that it is the lack of belief in a God of vengeance that ’secretly nouirishes violence’. The human impulse to make perpetrators of violence pay for their crimes is almost an overwhelming one. It cannot possibly be overcome with platitudes like ‘Now don’t you see that vilence won’t solveanything?’ If you have seen your home burned down and your relatives killed and raped, such talk is laughable- and it shows no real concern for justice. Yet victims of violence are drawn to go far beyond justice into the vengeance that says, ‘You put out one of my eyes, so i ill put out both of yours.’ They are pulled inexorably into an endless cycle of vengeance, of strikes and counterstrikes nurtured and justified by the memory of terrible wrongs.
Can our passion for justice be honoured in a way that does not nurture our desire for blood vengeance? Volf says the best resource for this belief in the concept of God’s divine justice. If i don’t believe that there is a God who will eventually put all things right, I will take up the sword and will be sucked into an endless vortex of retaliation. Only if i am sure that there’s a God who will right all wrongs and settle all accounts perfectly do i have the power to refrain.
Czeslaw Milosz, the nobel-prize winning Polish poet, wrote the remarkable essay ‘The Discreet Charms of Nihilissm’. In it he remembers how Marx had called religion ‘the opiate of the people’ because the promise of afterlife (Marx said) led the poor and the working class to put up with the unjust social conditions. but, Milosz continued:
And now we are witnessing a transformation. A true opium of the people is a belief in nothingness after death- the huge solace of thinking that our betrayals, greed, cowardice, murders are not going to be judged…[but] all religions recognise that our deeds are imperishable.
Many people complain that belief in a God of judgement will lead to a more brutal society. Milosz had personally seen, in both Nazism and Communism, that a loss of belief in a God of judgement can lead to brutality. If we are free to shape life and morals any way we choose without ultimate accountability, it can lead to violence. Volf and Milosz argue that the doctrine of God’s final judgement is a necessary undergirding for human practices of love and peacemaking.
Most people think a loving God would not allow hell
‘Ah,’ you may say, ‘fighting evil and injustice in the world is one thing, but sending people to hell is another. The bible speaks of eternal punishment. How does that fit with the love of God? I cannot reconcile even the idea of hell with a loving God.’ How do we address this understandable recoiling?
Modern people inevitably think that hell worls like this: God gives us time, but if we haven’t made the right choices by the end of our lives, he casts our souls into hell for all eternity. As the poor souls fall through space, they cry out for mercy, but God says,’ Too late! You had your chance! now you will suffer!’ This caricature misunderstands the very nature of evil. The biblical picture is that sin separates us from the presence of God, which is the source of all joy and indeed of all love, wisdom or good things of any sort. Since we were originally created for God’s immediate presence, only before his face will we thrive, flourish and achieve our highest potential. If we were to lose his presence totally, that would be hell- the loss of our capability for giving or receiving love or joy.
A common image of hell in the bible is that of fire. Fire disintegrates. Even in this life we can see the kind of soul disontegration that self-centredness craetes. We know how selfishness and self-absorption leads to piercing bitterness, nauseating envy, paralyzing anxiety, paranoid thought and the mental denials and distortions that accompany them. Now we ask the question: ‘What if when we die we dont end, but spiritually our life extends on into eternity?’ Hell, then, is the trajectory of a soul, living a self-absorbed, self-centred life, going on and on forever.
Jesus’ parable of Lazarus and the Rich Man in Luke 16 supports the view of hell we are presenting here. Lazarus is a poor man who begs at the gate of a cruel rich man. They both die and Lazarus goes to heaven while the rich man goes to hell. There he looks up and sees Lazarus in heaven ‘in Abraham’s bosom’:
So he called to him, ‘ Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.’ But Abraham replied, ‘Son, remember that in your lifetime you received good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony. And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been fixed, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.’ He answered, ‘then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my father’s house, for I have five brothers. Let him warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.’ Abraham replied, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.’ ‘No, father Abraham,’ he said, ‘but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.’ He said to him, ‘If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophetss, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.’ (Luke 16: 24-31)
What is astonishing is that though their statuses have now been reversed, the rich man seems to be blind to what has happened. He still expects Lazarus to be his servant and treats him as his water boy. He does not ask to get out of hell, yet strongly implies that God never gave him and his family enough information about the afterlife. Commentators have noted the astonishing amount of denial, blame-shifting and spiritual blindness in this soul in hell. They have also noted that the rich man, unlike Lazarus, is never given a personal name. He is only called a ‘Rich Man’, strongly hinting that since he had built his identity on his wealth rather than on God, once he lost his wealth he lost any sense of a self.
In short, hell is sim ply one’s freely chosen identity apart from God on a trajectory into infinity. We see this process’writ small’ in addiction to drugs, alcohol, gambling and pornography. First, there is disintegration, because as time goes on you need more and more of the sddictive substance to get an equal kick, which leads to less andless satisfaction. Second, there is the isolation, as increasingly you blame others and circumstances in order to justify your behaviour. ‘No one understands! Everyone is against me!’ is muttered in greater and greater self-pity and self-absorption. When we build our lives on anything but God, that thing- though a good thing- becomes an enslaving addiction, something we have to have to be happy. Personal disintegration happens on a broader scale. In eternity, this disintegration goes on forever. There is increasing isolation, denial, delusion and self-absorption. When you lose all humility you are out of touch with reality. No one ever asks to leave hell. The very idea of heaven seems to them a sham.
in his fantasy The Great Divorce,C.S. Lewis describes a busload of people from hell who come to the outskirts of heaven. There they are urgesd to leave behind the sins that have trapped them in hell- but they refuse. Lewis’s description of these people are striking because we recognise in them the self-delusion and self-absorption that are ‘writ small’ in our own addictions.
Hell begins with a grumbling mood, always complaining, always blaming others… but you are still distinct from it. You may even critisise it in yourself and wish you could stop it. But there may come a day when you can no longer. Then there will be no you left to critisise the mood or even enjoy it, but just the graumble itself, going on forever like a machine. It is not a question of God ’sending us’ to hell. In each of us there is domething growing, which will BE Hell unless it is nipped in the bud.
The people in hell are miserable, but Lewis shows us why. We see raging like unchecked flames their pride, their paranoia, their self-pity, their certainty that everyone else is wrong, that everyone else is an idiot! All their humility is gone, and thus so is their sanity. They are utterly, finally locked in a prison of their own self-centredness, and their pride progressively expands into a bigger mushroom cloud. They continue to go to piece forever, blaming everyone but themselves. Hell is that, writ large.
That is why it is a travesty to picture God casting people into a pit who are crying ‘I’m sorry! Let me out!’ The people on the bus from hell in Lewis’s parable would rather have their ‘freedom’, as they define it, than salvation. Their delusion is that, if they glorified God, they would somehow lose power and freedom, but in a supreme and tragic irony, their choice has ruined their own potential for greatness. Hell is, as Lewis says, ‘the greatest monument to human freedom’. As Romans 1:24 says, God ‘gave them up to … their desires’. All God does in the end with people is give them what they most want, including freedom from himself. What could be more fair than that? Lewis writes:
There are only two kinds of people- those who say to God, ‘Thy will be done’ to God or those to whom God in the end says, ‘ Thy will be done.’ All that are in Hell choose it. Without that self-choice it wouldnt be Hell. No soul that seriously and constantly desires joy will ever miss it.

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Jesus is Love
Wednesday, October 22, 2008

the day started off with me waking up half an hour earlier than usual because of some weird dream that i had since the beginning of the week. it left me with enough time to pack up my table and finish off one entire loaf of bread and one banana. when i was just beside the road, i saw bus C, i decided to head back to my room to change my watch since i have like 15 mins before the next bus comes. while walking back, realised that i needed to have some output from my heavy breakfast. upon doing so, i rushed back to the bustop and saw the next Bus C. quickly, i ran with all my might and managed to hop on the bus. then, i realised that there wasn't any aircon. to add on to my misery, the bus stopped at the terminal, so i had to climb up the freaking hill.

quantum was awesome, i mean i could understand most of it since i studied till where wang lan stopped previously. went forward to ask some questions when lecture ended and ended up looking like a fool when one of the scholar came and shot me a look and said like "its so easy!". anyway, we had tutorial after that and in the midst of it, jamie told me that our viva is at 1130 which was half an hour from when he told me so i had to rush to the library to print out my report. while doing a final check, i realised that my graph doesn't have error bars and the last graph especially dun have the plotted dots. as i compared my answer with jamie's, found more mistakes but everything was too late.

viva was quite screwy cuz we didn't know what was going on. i decided to leave it as that and went to jp with jamie shufen ruiquan and juliet (think that's his gf's name or u can just refer to her as monica.. lol). we had a huge meal at LJS, some hari raya family special plus another weird meal with chicken drumlets, popcorn chicken, prawns/sotong-lookalike-ikanbilis-thingy, more fries and chicken. that was pretty unhealthy but nevertheless delicious. it was pretty stupid for us to have a meal there and go back hall thus i suggested arcade.

initially, we just wanted to look at people play, then followed by going inside this neo print machine to chill. there was nothing inside really, just the sudden urge to take some random photos at the cost of $8 in which none of us were diligent enough to change coins thus the idea was thrown off. everything changed when we shifted our slacking mode to serious mode. we started playing this basketball tossing game from one machine to competing with 2. jamie helped shufen abit and won me by a couple of points. after which, due to our stupidity, we pumped like 4-5 credits in her machine and ended up playing for the next 15 mins. from 200 over points to 439 points, notice how much improvement we made. man, that was quite an achivement but at a cost. i felt my arm swell after that.

we walked a couple of rounds before playing daytona followed by this war shooting game. we took some photos before playing and when we are done, i learnt one thing. both jamie and i are peaceful people who should stay away from rifles and guns. while heading out of the arcade, we came upon this jap girl who was in distressed. she was trying to play bishi bashi but her card doesn't work. i was trying to tell her that her card either has no value left or faulty so she showed me a receipt. can't figure out what she was trying to tell me after that cuz we were using alot of hand signs. as she was pretty attractive (and has a nice figure), jamie decided to stalk her for awhile so we followed her to the toy shop. then, shufen wanted to buy bubble tea so we went to the basement and took alot of random photos. at the jap food area, we were enticed by the big sushi at the signboard so we decided to take a photo as tho we were like eating it. after posing, there was this sudden wave of crowd walking pass us. it made me look really spastic to the point when one of the waiters came out with free samples and offered everyone who walked pass except for us. sigh! free meat ballss!!!

then, we walked to the end of the jap area with this wall painted with a lady holding a signboard. jamie suggested that i stand beside her and do the exact same pose and take a photo. shufen wanted to do that too but as she was posing there, we grabbed our bags and ran off leaving her facing the hall all by herself. it took her quite awhile to realise that. heh.. after all that fun, we went to coffeebean to chill.

went back to hall to slack for awhile which time passed by faster than expected and by the time i looked at my watch, it was 7pm already. went to mug after that till 1am.. cool!!

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Jesus is Love
Sunday, October 12, 2008

i have low expectations on my studies but when i did had high expectations, it crashed on me. now i'm devastated and to a certain extend emotional because that was the only module that i thought i could do well but i didn't. all along i didn't care if i failed my mid terms but this, i thought i could almost score a full marks but i didn't and what i didn't expect was that i couldn't even get an A. that feeling kinda sucked, i told God that i wanna be able to thank Him even if i didn't get more than 90% but when i got far worse than 90%, i crashed.

when i went for sunday service today, i couldn't really worship God. as i looked around, i saw people lifting up their hands and singing but i couldn't. i tried closing my eyes and raising my hands occasionally but it didn't help at all. my heart was right for celebration, for praise. it's been awhile since i got so affected by something that i considered so insignificant. really trying not to think about it and at the same time hoping that its just a marking error.

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Jesus is Love