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Friday, June 29, 2007
this week was quite exciting. i had a medical appointment on monday so i was allowed to book in by monday afternoon. i was quite disappointed when the doc decided that i no longer needed to dress my wound (missing nail) but since the doc from ttsh suggested that i should see the doc every alternate days to change dressing and monitor the status of my wound, she gave me one last appointment on wed. thus, on tuesday night, i booked out again.
if i remembered correctly, it was on edwin's birthday, just so happened that i called chrystal and aveline to watch movie so ya, got to know of this surprise birthday party at olivia's place. so obviously both of them weren't free, so then i decided to watch movie with james, my poly friend. i finally watched fantastic 4 and ya, it wasn't that nice. those people who told me that silver surfer is dang powerful, u are right!! the only thing he did was the power shot in which the power came from his silver board and then the other was the final blow, it looked as though he had suicidal thoughts. all in all, his fighting scene lasted for like less than 5 mins. for somebody so powerful, before u realise it, the enemy is gone, disappeared, vanished. (oh ya, the rest of the scenes of him inside, he was powerless to do anything.. bleah)
after the movie, we went to eat rochor's tao hui, the you tiao weren't as nice as my previous trip there. saw stephanie (my sec sch friend) with one guy, dunno whether is it her bf. hah
wed afternoon, i requested to do an x ray on my back since my toe is somewhat done already. to my astonishment, based on the review by my doc, she mentioned that there's a probability that i might get slip disk if i were to continue playing sports. i was like kena stunned for a few seconds before i could react. anyway, she referred me to a bone specialist at jurong medical center, boonlay on thursday.
thursday morning, i booked out AGAIN at 8.30am, saw the doc, the doc said that at first glance, it looked normal, except for a small section of the spine in which the gap between the bones are slightly smaller. then i was like "so is my back okay?" and his reply was that i will send u for physio. he examined me once more, making me lie down on the bed in some awkward position to test whether my back hurts, so i replied truthfully and after that, i decided to declare that i have knee pains as well so i was sent for another x ray.
the analysis on that x ray stated that my knees were normal, so he deduced that the tissues wore out on the kneecap. after this trip to the medical center, i earned myself one month of status. if i had known, i would have gone for this checkup a month earlier. and so, i will be going for physio for my back and knee this monday.
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Jesus is Love
Sunday, June 24, 2007
leaders' retreat just ended and i think God had been awesome. there are alot of unknown things that happened and i have yet to discover (i will soon). during this retreat, we were split up into groups of 3, in which my team consist of timothy pang and one other guy. first day was uncle patrick, 2nd day dave. i was forced to pray for people more senior than me. it felt kinda awkward but i know that its something necessary for me to overcome in order to grow.
sidetrack abit, i have always feel uncomfortable with praying out loud in groups because i don't think i'm eloquent enough. of course i know that praying is to God and for God to listen but, seriously, head knowledge is different from practise. as i went through the sessions, somehow or rather, under such circumstances, praying wasn't that difficult already, in fact, i part of me kept on probing me to join prayer meeting on friday. i am not saying that i have been skipping prayers on friday cuz i do not want to pray with people. the thing is i can't even attend most of the tf cg bs meetings cuz of the army.
because of my toenail incident, i got alot of days mc and thus, i got to study at bryan's house, slack at clement's house awhile, attend the full leaders' retreat etc. i know that God wants me to be there for it and thus i have been waiting for something to happen. deep down i wanted God to display His power in my life, meaning that i was hoping to rest in the spirit (being slain by the Spirit) since pastor lionel said something bout that. i knew i had faith, i was praying desperately for it, tim and patrick prayed for me, yet, nothing happened. just then, i heard a voice that says is it that important for me to experience God? ain't i enough? then i realised He was right, y am i always depending on such things for confirmation eventhough i know and i never doubted Him that He is with me. after that, my whole day started shaking, i couldn't stand still. then i was like, this is it!! as both of them continue to pray for me, i shook more and more and then it stopped. i must admit that i got quite disappointed but at the same time i felt good because i think i heard His voice.
during one of the worship sessions, i felt different than usual, in fact when everyone was raising their hands and got emo, i couldn't stop smiling at God. then i was like asking God whether i'm like a little kid. i can't believe for the next few minutes that i was like almost acting cute in front of God and hoping to get hug by God. i dunno how to describe the feeling but hey, i felt really loved and contented at that point of time. in another session of worship, i couldn't feel anything at all and i felt like crap. it was when i prayed in the name of Jesus for any spirits that were stopping me from worship God that i started connecting with God again. it was the same feeling at Thailand when i was having my MOB trip that i remembered, a few minutes before nicole got attacked. ps lionel shared something about these spirits too. in case u all dunno, when i was poly yr 1, i was offered to guanyin as her godson, something along that line. so the thing is that i renounced it and prayed to God that i will not want to have anything to do with other gods but my one true God, Jesus (YES!!)
the last part of the retreat was praying for healing. esmond volunteered to be prayed for first and he was like "i injured my tailbone during training". then one of the helpers told us that it 'll be better to apply some oil on any parts of the body or better still, the injured part because we believe that god has anointed the oil. then because the helper is a lady, joash had to do it. and because esmond was like in the middle of the circle, most of the guys stood up and covered him from the girls who formed the majority of the circle. anyway, esmond didn't get healed then but who knows GOd might do something during the week, hope to hear from him soon.
as for me, i prayed for sarah wong for the pain on her wisdom tooth to be gone. i felt some heat coming out from my hands and that somehow after that, i was pretty sure that God will heal her. when i asked her whether she felt better after that, she said no but still, i believe God will definitely heal her because He loves to heal and he desires us to be happy and healthy. since we still had time after praying for sarah, my small group prayed for my missing toe nail as well as my back. somehow i think i got better but u know, it might be my own imagination or not. in any case, i'm glad i went through the retreat. thanks ps lionel, eunice, joy and all the helpers!!
the fun side of the retreat was actually last night when i went back to the old building with avelyn and seth to take some photographs before it is completely destroyed. we took a small rock each, which is like a part of the building. intend to keep it and tell the generations after us that. so erm the retreat could have been better if we, the leaders prayed more before going through it so that the HS can dwell in us more richly. oh well, lets wait for next year!!
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Jesus is Love
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
first and foremost, thank u uncle teck chuan and aunty sylvia for organising this church camp. it was indeed extremely refreshing and fun!!
this was my first time having so many people sleeping in one room, EVER!! my bunk got 3 rooms-
the main masterbed room with a king size bed and a private toilet was occupied by james amiel and me
the small room without the mirror was ivan and gabriel
the small room with a mirror was loo shin and moses
the living room was occupied by clement and pong from the second day onwards.
the thing about this hotel was that its HUGE and the rooms are dang nice. i didn't take much photos of the scenary cuz i forgot and that's sad. i dun think we will be going there like anytime soon so ya, use ur own imagination. there was like one pool just 15 s walk from our room and opposite the pool is where we had our meals. the lunch tasted quite bad but i like the breakfast and dinner. oh yea, they rocked!!
first day of camp, we touched down around 4 plus, by the time we had our briefing, it was about dinner time already. the first thing we did when we reached our room was our church camp tradition, pillow fight. i think that only happens when the bus gang are together and sadly, i got gang bang. clement amiel james tried to wallop me but the good always triumph over evil. soon after, more people joined in, it was like free for all kinda thing so we just anyhow spammed our pillows onto one another. by the time it was worship, i was totally shagged out.
the first sermon, it was about radical discipleship. rev edmund broke the verse luke 9:23 into 4 parts.
a. if anyone come after me (pursuit)
fact no 1, alot of people followed after Jesus because he was like a celebrity, people were curious about what he can do, what he say etc. are we following God because being a christian is cool? what are we pursuing in our life?
b. let him deny himself (posture)
it is about surrendering to God fully. it is an all or nothing situation.
c. and take up his cross daily (perseverance)
notice the word daily. other than that, it is quite self explainatory
d. and follow Me.. (passion)
crave out your own adventure with God.
the sermon went on for quite long. after that, it was response time, we were asked whether we wanted to surrender our lives to God. from our seats, we were invited to come to the front, starting from the back row as an act of declaration to God that we are willing to be surrender.
the day ended with that. discussion was cancelled due to the lack of time and so we went back to our rooms. the aircon at the living room was spoilt so clement moved his bed into my room and then jeremy decided to move the couch in as well. we took a photo with all of us in that room, u can take a look at it if u can't visualise. shortly after that, i suggested to play king of the hill and pong made me like the primary target again. oh, rules of that game is simple. all of us start off by getting on the bed and whoever falls off the bed loses so ya, winner will be the one who can stay on the bed the longest. it lasted for i think 3 mins after that, i decided to sleep.
i tried to sleep early because i felt really tired and i wanted to go for dawn touch the next day. at past midnight, we were still awake because jeremy didn't have a blanket and he kept on grabbing my feet and asking us whose leg it was. i think he wanted to grab amiel's but somehow my leg was on his range of fire. so with somebody touching/holding on to my ankle and amiel playing with the lights and james trying to pull the blanket more to his side and clement asking jeremy not to take his jacket, I COULDN'T SLEEP TILL 1AM when jeremy decided to give up his couch and slept with clement on the temp bed. then, amiel got so tired after playing psp so he returned it and came back. within minutes, he fell asleep and started snoring really loudly. i was badly affected by it because before he snore, he will roll closer to me and snore in my ear. then as my push him aside or shaft my pillow on his face, the snoring stopped awile. the time in which he stopped snoring and before he starts again was the time in which i have to fall asleep if not i have to wait for the next cycle. this went on till around 3am when i was so tired that all the noise didn't really matters anymore.
obviously i didn't went for dawn touch cuz of the lack of sleep. we woke up late, but we didn't miss breakfast. thank goodness ivan was around to wake us up every morning. session 2 was about the discipleship of calling (matt 5:13-16). it talks about 2 things: being the salt of the earth and being the light of the world.
salt of the earth refers to the uniqueness of being a child of God. we are called to be different, leading a supernatural life closely connected with God to do his work.
light of the world refers to our destiny. God uses ordinary folks like us to do great things for Him.
like i said above, lunch was bad. i went back to take a nap after lunch and by the time i woke up, it was time for team building games. the games were rather dull after awhile cuz it deals with the same things but i managed to entertain myself. found a super cute kid call jonathon and started to play with him. from then on, everytime he sees me at the dining area or the marquee, he will climb onto my lap and sit with me. i took quite alot of photos with him :P
the weather that day was quite bad, in fact it was drizzling but too bad it didn't spoil our mood for swimming at all. irregardless of the rain, we had our annual water polo at the pool (duh) but we played half court cuz the rest of the people can swim and also that the pool is quite deep on the other side so ya. overshot dinner time abit before we went to bathe then we went to eat and slept till worship after that. all of us were shagged out by then. session 3 was about focus but rev edmund was focus on his topic at all. all i learnt from that sermon was that i must be changed fully. that spoke to me really deep and i was determined to ask god for that. during the altar call, most of us responded and i made a commitment with god that i'm willing to change. i won't explain further here cuz its quite personal but ya, i felt that it was a good start.
day 3 was somewhat the same, except that my bunkmates got lazier and made me go for the workshop alone. the free and easy timeslot rocks cuz we went to the pool straight. the water polo game was like the same too cuz i always ended up with the team of either the lesser people or the weaker team but anyhow, from all the compliments i received, it seemed as though i am quite good (or maybe i really am in which i think to a certain extend i should agree with). just because i am quite good at being the goal keeper, i got stuck there like forever and couldn't really be a striker. so after awhile i decided to shoot from far, as in from the goal post. i think its better cuz i scared that if i were to shoot at a near range, somebody might go back singapore with a flat face. i mean this kind of throwing if in contact with ur face, u can kiss ur beautiful nose goodbye.
the sermons that day was quite clear cut. the lessons i got from there was that God wants to bless us. prayer is about asking God, communicating with God (4) and when we serve Him, consider ourselves as the lowest, but with authority. after that sermon, it really made me think through my attitude towards service. to sum up all the sermons, the concluding one (6) was about following God fully, gladly and only. we are called to be PDA christians which stands for
- personal revival
- divine appointment
- active obedience
after that sermon, the sunny day became dark again and after awhile when we started swimming, it was hot again. wynn borrowed my tanning oil to tan (duh) just to match her outfit later on in the day. as i walked pass the pool later on, saw them baking themselves on a rock at the side of the medium pool. reminded me of the time when i had bbq on a marble rock. hah
gala night was cool. all the 4 mcs did a really good job. loke's imitation of jack sparrow was fantastic. in fact, i realised that he just needed to be himself. before the event started, he was wearing shades and telling people that he's tom cruise, we were totally convinced (similar height).
u know i bet u can tell that im trying to finish up the updating of this entry so ya, i shall not continue to do so cuz gala night is fun only when u were present. it can't be spelt out, fun can't really be potrayed in words, unless u are a geek and i believe u are not so ya, if u really wanna know what happened, look at the photos, they say a thousand words.
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Jesus is Love
Friday, June 08, 2007
just came back from the ncc camp. the following schools were involved:
fuhua
boon lay sec
cresent
kent ridge
acs(i)
yuhua
pukit panjang govt
and some others in which i can't remember. overall, i had quite a fun time looking at how they behave and stuff. it was rather interesting looking at how they do their drills and how they try to volunteer to do stuffs in order to get noticed by the ltcs and me.
there were a total or 6 platoons and i took the 3rd one. i started talking to them only on the 2 night because there wasn't an appropriate time for me to do so. i initiated a talk like "how many of u dun have water bottles, i'll go out and get it for u." it was quite retarded but at least it worked. they went on to tell me to buy coke, 100 plus that kinda things instead of normal mineral water.
anyway, i bought 6 1.5L of flavored drinks for them and spent $24 because my friend borrowed money from me to get it for his platoon as well. hmm, to exchange for like the last 2 days of friendship, i thought it was rather worth it. after i gave them the drinks, they started to open up to me and asked me alot of questions about their tests tomorrow and also to clarify their doubts which they previously told me that they had no questions at all. we spent around 1 hr discussing about it at the training shed and just when we were about to sleep, they asked me to go to their bunk at night to tell them ghost stories. i, of all people ain't very keen on ghost stories myself so i kind of avioded that and went on to another topic.
the next day, everyone started to gather around me wherever i go, asked me bout my personal life, how is it in the army and stuff. there were a bunch of rowdy kids who didn't show much respect to the ltcs and sometimes me so i tried to not talk to them so much and rather spent time talking with people who can behave alot better. oh ya, before going on to that, let me share with u what happened at the barber shop on the 2nd day, around 1 plus..
a group of i think 40 people got picked out from the whole company of 6 platoons to have their hair cut for obvious reason. out of which, i can only recognise or rather remember 3 guys. henry, jake and another one in which i didn't ask for his name.
jake is the only one from kent ridge in my platoon so he's like always alone and not talking to anyone. quite a charming kid but just too quiet. at the barber shop, the 2nd guy who went in to cut requested for 4321, referring to almost bmt kind of standard. i can't believe he actually wanted to shave everything off. since jake was the third one, i think he placed a bet with his friends outside the barber to cut the same thing. i was quite impressed with his courage because that was his first time shaving his hair off and he could stand watching his hair dropping off. after the haircut, he visited the toilet like once every 10 mins.
henry had some trouble with the barber. he kind of challenged the ltcs by saying that the warrant officer outside said that it wasn't necessary to have high slope at the back and he went on with comments like the warrant's instruction can override the ltcs. then the barber got quite pissed and said that the barber's order is higher than the warrant. throughout the haircut, that poor boy was sulking. heh, forgive me for saying this but i suppose this is a rather typical acs attitude. :P anyway, i went out to talk to him after i saw him sitting down at a corner like feeling really pissed about what happened. after some persuasion, he decided to let the matter go and enjoy the rest of the camp. who would have guessed that he was in my platoon.
the last guy came from some other platoon. i went to talk to him because he looked really adorable, small in size and rather plump. as we talked , he asked if i could help him get mineral water since he wasn't allowed to leave his seat unless authorised by the ltcs. since then, he greeted me everytime he saw me walking past.
alright, back to the third day. it was the day that determined whether they could get their ranks. everyone was quite stressed. i followed them through the stations and at the rifle handling station, as the examiner tested them for the immediate action drills, i realised that i made a mistake for one of the drills but it wasn't exactly wrong. anyway, the examiner looked at me so i went there to explain that it was my fault and requested for him to not deduct any points. luckily, that guy happened to me one of the few ltcs that i talked to so he sort of like agreed to do as i said. for the rest of the drills, my platoon did really well as expected. heh
when everything was over, it was nighttime already. they catered 1/2 hr for pc talk but my dear pc got nothing to say and since i was around, he looked at me and expect me to talk to them. so, the group of rowdy guys asked me to tell ghost stories again. this time, it was unaviodable so ya. it went on for 45 mins before they had to go back to their bunks to bathe and prepare for tomorrow. since it was like the last night, i went up to their bunks to chat since they invited me.
lights off timing was suppose to be at 10.30pm but i stayed longer and decided to bend the rules abit. one of my cadets informed the rest of the platoon that i was at the last bunk so more than half of the platoon came over to listen to my stories once again. before going up, i did my qt and sort of asked God for His opinion because firstly, saying ghost stories will instill fear in yourself and secondly, it involves alot of false believe which is conflicting to what is taught in the bible. anyway, i read on psalms and God reassured me that he will give me strength to block off all the spiritual stuff and at the same time, he challenged me to share about what happened in my mob trip. since it was like ghost stories and spiritual warfare consists of creepy stuff as well, it sort of make sense.
it was hard to convey this message but i didn't managed to have a proper closure because they were more interested in the spirits and what they do more than anything else. shortly after, one of the female ltc opened the window and saw a huge crowd and chased everyone back to their beds so ya, that was it. at first, all of us intended to sleep at that bunk after the stories because all the guys were quite scared too but too bad..
the next day morning, the warrant officer came to talk to qn regarding this matter because the ltc complained. lucky nothing was said about me, maybe because i blended into the crowd. this was like the last day and i thought they would just let it go.
after some talk, there was AAR (after action review). all the ltcs were not allowed to partcipate since it was about feedback regarding the planning of the camp and them. the warrant used this opportunity to teach the cadets about how they should have a goal and make sure they are willing to go all the way to achieve it. then came the last part, the ltcs. he asked whether they liked their ltcs and who they liked best. most of the platoon shouted for their madam hazimah because she's quite cute looking. then my platoon shouted my name and i was like shocked but at the same time happy, in fact, estatic.
erm, im quite lazy to update bout the rest of it so i shall proceed to the last part. everyone was packing their bags and falling in. my platoon was the last to fall in and i left before everyone was down. i wanted to say bye to them for the very last time but my friends were like telling me not to bother since after awhile they will forget about me. to a certain extend, i know that's true, especially for guys. some of them saw me from a distance and came to shake my hands and thanked me. was hoping that people that i showed more attention to will bid me farewell but they didn't. i felt really sian after that and just wanted to go back to my own camp to bathe before going jurong point for dinner.
at jurong point, qn suggested to go kfc and when we got there, jake was with his friends. he told me that he was one of the 10 from my platoon who got 2nd sgt and thanked me after that. u know after that, i felt much better since at least 1 of the 4 that i showed more attention to thank me.
and one last thing, on the last night, the hottest girl in camp wanted to get to know me so i was quite flattered but eh, i didn't gave her my number cuz i dunno, don't think it was appropriate. what an idiot!! ahhhh
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Jesus is Love
Monday, June 04, 2007
my friend invited me along with 3 other non christian friend to his church to take part for this amazing race around singapore. i thought it was kind of like a sure win thing since we will be competing with the youth group. junzhi was super cautious when he talks to people because he was so scared that people will come as a group and try to convert him. sean and chan how were more interested in the food and the prize. for me, i was neutral, i wanted to win but not really very badly.
the people from pg's church wasn't that warm, i realised that everyone just sticked to their own clique of friends. only the leaders bother to really walk around and say hello to new friends that kinda thing. first impression of that church was that the size of their youth group is really small and they made it feel really small by just sitting around and not going around to mix with others.
the committee start off the programme with some ice breakers. i thought that was a really good idea because it shows how friendly and fun the church is. moreover, in case there are people who intend to leave early, they know how fun the people there are.
once the whistle was blown for the race to start, ALL the groups ran off to the mrt. since we were suppose to go to the same place, we had to be really fast to stay at the top 3. actually we weren't expecting people to run off so soon thus we walked out of the church gracefully, unlike the rest of the group. gradually, we got a bit stressed out by people around us so we started running as well. too bad we missed the train and let 2-3 teams got ahead of us.
our first station was at national library. it was extremely retarded because right after we got to that place and got our second clue, we had to run off to smu accountancy block to find the 3rd clue. for a moment i thought we would have to do some stuff before we could obtain the clue. well, perhaps they wanted to illustrate the simplicity of life. hah!
at smu, we were given a choice of either finding a page that describes amazing race from a very thick book or that we could go basement and take 2 photos with background the same as the hint given to us at the basement of the smu building. (they took a portion of some object and gave us as hints)
that was quite an easy task. by the time we reached our 4th clue, we realised that we were ahead of the others. at uob building, we found our station masters and guess what, it was a road block and we had to wait for the second team to perform the task together. we felt really cheated but what can we do? like what my friend said, buy a bottle of nutella and dip your thumb in before putting it in your mouth. the second team consists of 4 girls who represented their school track team. they were really full of energy and have great staminas. picture this, a bunch of girls catching up with 5 army guys who trained like twice a week and managed to clear the army half marathon. thats like pure insulting. then, we were even more determined to win them.
our 5th clue was to travel to ikea, the one near red hill. the girls happened to study at cresent girls so that place was kinda like their home ground. we followed them to ikea since we expected them to use the shortcut. anyway, after getting off the bus, my team ran faster than them so we got the clue first but they managed to clear the task faster than us cuz of pure luck. we were suppose to look for one of the two people in the building and just so happen that when they went down to the first floor, that guy that we were suppose to look for came out.
we were quite disheartened when we saw that the girls got on the bus and left without us but hey, we caught up because the next destination was where people of my age will go to, the cosy place near indoor stadium. most people will take train to kallang and walk from there but we were smart enough to got off at cityhall and took a bus that will drop us somewhere really near. once again, we were leading.
next, we went off to marina park. its located at marina bay mrt station, a park further in, before the steamboat place. we spent really long there before we could finish the tasks assigned to us. the cresent group caught up and then, we headed back to the final checkpoint together. they were dang retarded la. we saw them chasing after the bus from afar and they thought we didn't see us so they hid on the bus and hoped that we thought it was the wrong bus and will start panicking and go to another bus stop or something. could see that they looked really disappointed that we got on.
the last checkpoint was rather far away from the mrt station. my team were quite far ahead and thus, we managed to clear our task faster, with skill. so overall, my team won!! we waited for the girls at the church, wanted to cheer for them but after some discussion, we decided to fool them. so, we ran up the slope, just when the girls reach the church, we will try to overtake them and then declare again that we were the champion. heh, sometimes guys can be so revengeful and childish i know. that make us guys, full or pride and stuff. glad that i got 30 dollars voucher from swensons. brought my family out to eat the next day. my grandmother was really happy that day and so, we are going to plan for another ice cream trip at haagen daz. yummy!!
and in case u were wondering how come im at home, well, its another story. to cut the long story short, its a really bad day. argh
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+++9:33 PM+++
Jesus is Love
this week was quite exciting. i had a medical appointment on monday so i was allowed to book in by monday afternoon. i was quite disappointed when the doc decided that i no longer needed to dress my wound (missing nail) but since the doc from ttsh suggested that i should see the doc every alternate days to change dressing and monitor the status of my wound, she gave me one last appointment on wed. thus, on tuesday night, i booked out again.
if i remembered correctly, it was on edwin's birthday, just so happened that i called chrystal and aveline to watch movie so ya, got to know of this surprise birthday party at olivia's place. so obviously both of them weren't free, so then i decided to watch movie with james, my poly friend. i finally watched fantastic 4 and ya, it wasn't that nice. those people who told me that silver surfer is dang powerful, u are right!! the only thing he did was the power shot in which the power came from his silver board and then the other was the final blow, it looked as though he had suicidal thoughts. all in all, his fighting scene lasted for like less than 5 mins. for somebody so powerful, before u realise it, the enemy is gone, disappeared, vanished. (oh ya, the rest of the scenes of him inside, he was powerless to do anything.. bleah)
after the movie, we went to eat rochor's tao hui, the you tiao weren't as nice as my previous trip there. saw stephanie (my sec sch friend) with one guy, dunno whether is it her bf. hah
wed afternoon, i requested to do an x ray on my back since my toe is somewhat done already. to my astonishment, based on the review by my doc, she mentioned that there's a probability that i might get slip disk if i were to continue playing sports. i was like kena stunned for a few seconds before i could react. anyway, she referred me to a bone specialist at jurong medical center, boonlay on thursday.
thursday morning, i booked out AGAIN at 8.30am, saw the doc, the doc said that at first glance, it looked normal, except for a small section of the spine in which the gap between the bones are slightly smaller. then i was like "so is my back okay?" and his reply was that i will send u for physio. he examined me once more, making me lie down on the bed in some awkward position to test whether my back hurts, so i replied truthfully and after that, i decided to declare that i have knee pains as well so i was sent for another x ray.
the analysis on that x ray stated that my knees were normal, so he deduced that the tissues wore out on the kneecap. after this trip to the medical center, i earned myself one month of status. if i had known, i would have gone for this checkup a month earlier. and so, i will be going for physio for my back and knee this monday.
Jesus is Love
Sunday, June 24, 2007
leaders' retreat just ended and i think God had been awesome. there are alot of unknown things that happened and i have yet to discover (i will soon). during this retreat, we were split up into groups of 3, in which my team consist of timothy pang and one other guy. first day was uncle patrick, 2nd day dave. i was forced to pray for people more senior than me. it felt kinda awkward but i know that its something necessary for me to overcome in order to grow.
sidetrack abit, i have always feel uncomfortable with praying out loud in groups because i don't think i'm eloquent enough. of course i know that praying is to God and for God to listen but, seriously, head knowledge is different from practise. as i went through the sessions, somehow or rather, under such circumstances, praying wasn't that difficult already, in fact, i part of me kept on probing me to join prayer meeting on friday. i am not saying that i have been skipping prayers on friday cuz i do not want to pray with people. the thing is i can't even attend most of the tf cg bs meetings cuz of the army.
because of my toenail incident, i got alot of days mc and thus, i got to study at bryan's house, slack at clement's house awhile, attend the full leaders' retreat etc. i know that God wants me to be there for it and thus i have been waiting for something to happen. deep down i wanted God to display His power in my life, meaning that i was hoping to rest in the spirit (being slain by the Spirit) since pastor lionel said something bout that. i knew i had faith, i was praying desperately for it, tim and patrick prayed for me, yet, nothing happened. just then, i heard a voice that says is it that important for me to experience God? ain't i enough? then i realised He was right, y am i always depending on such things for confirmation eventhough i know and i never doubted Him that He is with me. after that, my whole day started shaking, i couldn't stand still. then i was like, this is it!! as both of them continue to pray for me, i shook more and more and then it stopped. i must admit that i got quite disappointed but at the same time i felt good because i think i heard His voice.
during one of the worship sessions, i felt different than usual, in fact when everyone was raising their hands and got emo, i couldn't stop smiling at God. then i was like asking God whether i'm like a little kid. i can't believe for the next few minutes that i was like almost acting cute in front of God and hoping to get hug by God. i dunno how to describe the feeling but hey, i felt really loved and contented at that point of time. in another session of worship, i couldn't feel anything at all and i felt like crap. it was when i prayed in the name of Jesus for any spirits that were stopping me from worship God that i started connecting with God again. it was the same feeling at Thailand when i was having my MOB trip that i remembered, a few minutes before nicole got attacked. ps lionel shared something about these spirits too. in case u all dunno, when i was poly yr 1, i was offered to guanyin as her godson, something along that line. so the thing is that i renounced it and prayed to God that i will not want to have anything to do with other gods but my one true God, Jesus (YES!!)
the last part of the retreat was praying for healing. esmond volunteered to be prayed for first and he was like "i injured my tailbone during training". then one of the helpers told us that it 'll be better to apply some oil on any parts of the body or better still, the injured part because we believe that god has anointed the oil. then because the helper is a lady, joash had to do it. and because esmond was like in the middle of the circle, most of the guys stood up and covered him from the girls who formed the majority of the circle. anyway, esmond didn't get healed then but who knows GOd might do something during the week, hope to hear from him soon.
as for me, i prayed for sarah wong for the pain on her wisdom tooth to be gone. i felt some heat coming out from my hands and that somehow after that, i was pretty sure that God will heal her. when i asked her whether she felt better after that, she said no but still, i believe God will definitely heal her because He loves to heal and he desires us to be happy and healthy. since we still had time after praying for sarah, my small group prayed for my missing toe nail as well as my back. somehow i think i got better but u know, it might be my own imagination or not. in any case, i'm glad i went through the retreat. thanks ps lionel, eunice, joy and all the helpers!!
the fun side of the retreat was actually last night when i went back to the old building with avelyn and seth to take some photographs before it is completely destroyed. we took a small rock each, which is like a part of the building. intend to keep it and tell the generations after us that. so erm the retreat could have been better if we, the leaders prayed more before going through it so that the HS can dwell in us more richly. oh well, lets wait for next year!!
Jesus is Love
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
first and foremost, thank u uncle teck chuan and aunty sylvia for organising this church camp. it was indeed extremely refreshing and fun!!
this was my first time having so many people sleeping in one room, EVER!! my bunk got 3 rooms-
the main masterbed room with a king size bed and a private toilet was occupied by james amiel and me
the small room without the mirror was ivan and gabriel
the small room with a mirror was loo shin and moses
the living room was occupied by clement and pong from the second day onwards.
the thing about this hotel was that its HUGE and the rooms are dang nice. i didn't take much photos of the scenary cuz i forgot and that's sad. i dun think we will be going there like anytime soon so ya, use ur own imagination. there was like one pool just 15 s walk from our room and opposite the pool is where we had our meals. the lunch tasted quite bad but i like the breakfast and dinner. oh yea, they rocked!!
first day of camp, we touched down around 4 plus, by the time we had our briefing, it was about dinner time already. the first thing we did when we reached our room was our church camp tradition, pillow fight. i think that only happens when the bus gang are together and sadly, i got gang bang. clement amiel james tried to wallop me but the good always triumph over evil. soon after, more people joined in, it was like free for all kinda thing so we just anyhow spammed our pillows onto one another. by the time it was worship, i was totally shagged out.
the first sermon, it was about radical discipleship. rev edmund broke the verse luke 9:23 into 4 parts.
a. if anyone come after me (pursuit)
fact no 1, alot of people followed after Jesus because he was like a celebrity, people were curious about what he can do, what he say etc. are we following God because being a christian is cool? what are we pursuing in our life?
b. let him deny himself (posture)
it is about surrendering to God fully. it is an all or nothing situation.
c. and take up his cross daily (perseverance)
notice the word daily. other than that, it is quite self explainatory
d. and follow Me.. (passion)
crave out your own adventure with God.
the sermon went on for quite long. after that, it was response time, we were asked whether we wanted to surrender our lives to God. from our seats, we were invited to come to the front, starting from the back row as an act of declaration to God that we are willing to be surrender.
the day ended with that. discussion was cancelled due to the lack of time and so we went back to our rooms. the aircon at the living room was spoilt so clement moved his bed into my room and then jeremy decided to move the couch in as well. we took a photo with all of us in that room, u can take a look at it if u can't visualise. shortly after that, i suggested to play king of the hill and pong made me like the primary target again. oh, rules of that game is simple. all of us start off by getting on the bed and whoever falls off the bed loses so ya, winner will be the one who can stay on the bed the longest. it lasted for i think 3 mins after that, i decided to sleep.
i tried to sleep early because i felt really tired and i wanted to go for dawn touch the next day. at past midnight, we were still awake because jeremy didn't have a blanket and he kept on grabbing my feet and asking us whose leg it was. i think he wanted to grab amiel's but somehow my leg was on his range of fire. so with somebody touching/holding on to my ankle and amiel playing with the lights and james trying to pull the blanket more to his side and clement asking jeremy not to take his jacket, I COULDN'T SLEEP TILL 1AM when jeremy decided to give up his couch and slept with clement on the temp bed. then, amiel got so tired after playing psp so he returned it and came back. within minutes, he fell asleep and started snoring really loudly. i was badly affected by it because before he snore, he will roll closer to me and snore in my ear. then as my push him aside or shaft my pillow on his face, the snoring stopped awile. the time in which he stopped snoring and before he starts again was the time in which i have to fall asleep if not i have to wait for the next cycle. this went on till around 3am when i was so tired that all the noise didn't really matters anymore.
obviously i didn't went for dawn touch cuz of the lack of sleep. we woke up late, but we didn't miss breakfast. thank goodness ivan was around to wake us up every morning. session 2 was about the discipleship of calling (matt 5:13-16). it talks about 2 things: being the salt of the earth and being the light of the world.
salt of the earth refers to the uniqueness of being a child of God. we are called to be different, leading a supernatural life closely connected with God to do his work.
light of the world refers to our destiny. God uses ordinary folks like us to do great things for Him.
like i said above, lunch was bad. i went back to take a nap after lunch and by the time i woke up, it was time for team building games. the games were rather dull after awhile cuz it deals with the same things but i managed to entertain myself. found a super cute kid call jonathon and started to play with him. from then on, everytime he sees me at the dining area or the marquee, he will climb onto my lap and sit with me. i took quite alot of photos with him :P
the weather that day was quite bad, in fact it was drizzling but too bad it didn't spoil our mood for swimming at all. irregardless of the rain, we had our annual water polo at the pool (duh) but we played half court cuz the rest of the people can swim and also that the pool is quite deep on the other side so ya. overshot dinner time abit before we went to bathe then we went to eat and slept till worship after that. all of us were shagged out by then. session 3 was about focus but rev edmund was focus on his topic at all. all i learnt from that sermon was that i must be changed fully. that spoke to me really deep and i was determined to ask god for that. during the altar call, most of us responded and i made a commitment with god that i'm willing to change. i won't explain further here cuz its quite personal but ya, i felt that it was a good start.
day 3 was somewhat the same, except that my bunkmates got lazier and made me go for the workshop alone. the free and easy timeslot rocks cuz we went to the pool straight. the water polo game was like the same too cuz i always ended up with the team of either the lesser people or the weaker team but anyhow, from all the compliments i received, it seemed as though i am quite good (or maybe i really am in which i think to a certain extend i should agree with). just because i am quite good at being the goal keeper, i got stuck there like forever and couldn't really be a striker. so after awhile i decided to shoot from far, as in from the goal post. i think its better cuz i scared that if i were to shoot at a near range, somebody might go back singapore with a flat face. i mean this kind of throwing if in contact with ur face, u can kiss ur beautiful nose goodbye.
the sermons that day was quite clear cut. the lessons i got from there was that God wants to bless us. prayer is about asking God, communicating with God (4) and when we serve Him, consider ourselves as the lowest, but with authority. after that sermon, it really made me think through my attitude towards service. to sum up all the sermons, the concluding one (6) was about following God fully, gladly and only. we are called to be PDA christians which stands for
- personal revival
- divine appointment
- active obedience
after that sermon, the sunny day became dark again and after awhile when we started swimming, it was hot again. wynn borrowed my tanning oil to tan (duh) just to match her outfit later on in the day. as i walked pass the pool later on, saw them baking themselves on a rock at the side of the medium pool. reminded me of the time when i had bbq on a marble rock. hah
gala night was cool. all the 4 mcs did a really good job. loke's imitation of jack sparrow was fantastic. in fact, i realised that he just needed to be himself. before the event started, he was wearing shades and telling people that he's tom cruise, we were totally convinced (similar height).
u know i bet u can tell that im trying to finish up the updating of this entry so ya, i shall not continue to do so cuz gala night is fun only when u were present. it can't be spelt out, fun can't really be potrayed in words, unless u are a geek and i believe u are not so ya, if u really wanna know what happened, look at the photos, they say a thousand words.
Jesus is Love
Friday, June 08, 2007
just came back from the ncc camp. the following schools were involved:
fuhua
boon lay sec
cresent
kent ridge
acs(i)
yuhua
pukit panjang govt
and some others in which i can't remember. overall, i had quite a fun time looking at how they behave and stuff. it was rather interesting looking at how they do their drills and how they try to volunteer to do stuffs in order to get noticed by the ltcs and me.
there were a total or 6 platoons and i took the 3rd one. i started talking to them only on the 2 night because there wasn't an appropriate time for me to do so. i initiated a talk like "how many of u dun have water bottles, i'll go out and get it for u." it was quite retarded but at least it worked. they went on to tell me to buy coke, 100 plus that kinda things instead of normal mineral water.
anyway, i bought 6 1.5L of flavored drinks for them and spent $24 because my friend borrowed money from me to get it for his platoon as well. hmm, to exchange for like the last 2 days of friendship, i thought it was rather worth it. after i gave them the drinks, they started to open up to me and asked me alot of questions about their tests tomorrow and also to clarify their doubts which they previously told me that they had no questions at all. we spent around 1 hr discussing about it at the training shed and just when we were about to sleep, they asked me to go to their bunk at night to tell them ghost stories. i, of all people ain't very keen on ghost stories myself so i kind of avioded that and went on to another topic.
the next day, everyone started to gather around me wherever i go, asked me bout my personal life, how is it in the army and stuff. there were a bunch of rowdy kids who didn't show much respect to the ltcs and sometimes me so i tried to not talk to them so much and rather spent time talking with people who can behave alot better. oh ya, before going on to that, let me share with u what happened at the barber shop on the 2nd day, around 1 plus..
a group of i think 40 people got picked out from the whole company of 6 platoons to have their hair cut for obvious reason. out of which, i can only recognise or rather remember 3 guys. henry, jake and another one in which i didn't ask for his name.
jake is the only one from kent ridge in my platoon so he's like always alone and not talking to anyone. quite a charming kid but just too quiet. at the barber shop, the 2nd guy who went in to cut requested for 4321, referring to almost bmt kind of standard. i can't believe he actually wanted to shave everything off. since jake was the third one, i think he placed a bet with his friends outside the barber to cut the same thing. i was quite impressed with his courage because that was his first time shaving his hair off and he could stand watching his hair dropping off. after the haircut, he visited the toilet like once every 10 mins.
henry had some trouble with the barber. he kind of challenged the ltcs by saying that the warrant officer outside said that it wasn't necessary to have high slope at the back and he went on with comments like the warrant's instruction can override the ltcs. then the barber got quite pissed and said that the barber's order is higher than the warrant. throughout the haircut, that poor boy was sulking. heh, forgive me for saying this but i suppose this is a rather typical acs attitude. :P anyway, i went out to talk to him after i saw him sitting down at a corner like feeling really pissed about what happened. after some persuasion, he decided to let the matter go and enjoy the rest of the camp. who would have guessed that he was in my platoon.
the last guy came from some other platoon. i went to talk to him because he looked really adorable, small in size and rather plump. as we talked , he asked if i could help him get mineral water since he wasn't allowed to leave his seat unless authorised by the ltcs. since then, he greeted me everytime he saw me walking past.
alright, back to the third day. it was the day that determined whether they could get their ranks. everyone was quite stressed. i followed them through the stations and at the rifle handling station, as the examiner tested them for the immediate action drills, i realised that i made a mistake for one of the drills but it wasn't exactly wrong. anyway, the examiner looked at me so i went there to explain that it was my fault and requested for him to not deduct any points. luckily, that guy happened to me one of the few ltcs that i talked to so he sort of like agreed to do as i said. for the rest of the drills, my platoon did really well as expected. heh
when everything was over, it was nighttime already. they catered 1/2 hr for pc talk but my dear pc got nothing to say and since i was around, he looked at me and expect me to talk to them. so, the group of rowdy guys asked me to tell ghost stories again. this time, it was unaviodable so ya. it went on for 45 mins before they had to go back to their bunks to bathe and prepare for tomorrow. since it was like the last night, i went up to their bunks to chat since they invited me.
lights off timing was suppose to be at 10.30pm but i stayed longer and decided to bend the rules abit. one of my cadets informed the rest of the platoon that i was at the last bunk so more than half of the platoon came over to listen to my stories once again. before going up, i did my qt and sort of asked God for His opinion because firstly, saying ghost stories will instill fear in yourself and secondly, it involves alot of false believe which is conflicting to what is taught in the bible. anyway, i read on psalms and God reassured me that he will give me strength to block off all the spiritual stuff and at the same time, he challenged me to share about what happened in my mob trip. since it was like ghost stories and spiritual warfare consists of creepy stuff as well, it sort of make sense.
it was hard to convey this message but i didn't managed to have a proper closure because they were more interested in the spirits and what they do more than anything else. shortly after, one of the female ltc opened the window and saw a huge crowd and chased everyone back to their beds so ya, that was it. at first, all of us intended to sleep at that bunk after the stories because all the guys were quite scared too but too bad..
the next day morning, the warrant officer came to talk to qn regarding this matter because the ltc complained. lucky nothing was said about me, maybe because i blended into the crowd. this was like the last day and i thought they would just let it go.
after some talk, there was AAR (after action review). all the ltcs were not allowed to partcipate since it was about feedback regarding the planning of the camp and them. the warrant used this opportunity to teach the cadets about how they should have a goal and make sure they are willing to go all the way to achieve it. then came the last part, the ltcs. he asked whether they liked their ltcs and who they liked best. most of the platoon shouted for their madam hazimah because she's quite cute looking. then my platoon shouted my name and i was like shocked but at the same time happy, in fact, estatic.
erm, im quite lazy to update bout the rest of it so i shall proceed to the last part. everyone was packing their bags and falling in. my platoon was the last to fall in and i left before everyone was down. i wanted to say bye to them for the very last time but my friends were like telling me not to bother since after awhile they will forget about me. to a certain extend, i know that's true, especially for guys. some of them saw me from a distance and came to shake my hands and thanked me. was hoping that people that i showed more attention to will bid me farewell but they didn't. i felt really sian after that and just wanted to go back to my own camp to bathe before going jurong point for dinner.
at jurong point, qn suggested to go kfc and when we got there, jake was with his friends. he told me that he was one of the 10 from my platoon who got 2nd sgt and thanked me after that. u know after that, i felt much better since at least 1 of the 4 that i showed more attention to thank me.
and one last thing, on the last night, the hottest girl in camp wanted to get to know me so i was quite flattered but eh, i didn't gave her my number cuz i dunno, don't think it was appropriate. what an idiot!! ahhhh
Jesus is Love
Monday, June 04, 2007
my friend invited me along with 3 other non christian friend to his church to take part for this amazing race around singapore. i thought it was kind of like a sure win thing since we will be competing with the youth group. junzhi was super cautious when he talks to people because he was so scared that people will come as a group and try to convert him. sean and chan how were more interested in the food and the prize. for me, i was neutral, i wanted to win but not really very badly.
the people from pg's church wasn't that warm, i realised that everyone just sticked to their own clique of friends. only the leaders bother to really walk around and say hello to new friends that kinda thing. first impression of that church was that the size of their youth group is really small and they made it feel really small by just sitting around and not going around to mix with others.
the committee start off the programme with some ice breakers. i thought that was a really good idea because it shows how friendly and fun the church is. moreover, in case there are people who intend to leave early, they know how fun the people there are.
once the whistle was blown for the race to start, ALL the groups ran off to the mrt. since we were suppose to go to the same place, we had to be really fast to stay at the top 3. actually we weren't expecting people to run off so soon thus we walked out of the church gracefully, unlike the rest of the group. gradually, we got a bit stressed out by people around us so we started running as well. too bad we missed the train and let 2-3 teams got ahead of us.
our first station was at national library. it was extremely retarded because right after we got to that place and got our second clue, we had to run off to smu accountancy block to find the 3rd clue. for a moment i thought we would have to do some stuff before we could obtain the clue. well, perhaps they wanted to illustrate the simplicity of life. hah!
at smu, we were given a choice of either finding a page that describes amazing race from a very thick book or that we could go basement and take 2 photos with background the same as the hint given to us at the basement of the smu building. (they took a portion of some object and gave us as hints)
that was quite an easy task. by the time we reached our 4th clue, we realised that we were ahead of the others. at uob building, we found our station masters and guess what, it was a road block and we had to wait for the second team to perform the task together. we felt really cheated but what can we do? like what my friend said, buy a bottle of nutella and dip your thumb in before putting it in your mouth. the second team consists of 4 girls who represented their school track team. they were really full of energy and have great staminas. picture this, a bunch of girls catching up with 5 army guys who trained like twice a week and managed to clear the army half marathon. thats like pure insulting. then, we were even more determined to win them.
our 5th clue was to travel to ikea, the one near red hill. the girls happened to study at cresent girls so that place was kinda like their home ground. we followed them to ikea since we expected them to use the shortcut. anyway, after getting off the bus, my team ran faster than them so we got the clue first but they managed to clear the task faster than us cuz of pure luck. we were suppose to look for one of the two people in the building and just so happen that when they went down to the first floor, that guy that we were suppose to look for came out.
we were quite disheartened when we saw that the girls got on the bus and left without us but hey, we caught up because the next destination was where people of my age will go to, the cosy place near indoor stadium. most people will take train to kallang and walk from there but we were smart enough to got off at cityhall and took a bus that will drop us somewhere really near. once again, we were leading.
next, we went off to marina park. its located at marina bay mrt station, a park further in, before the steamboat place. we spent really long there before we could finish the tasks assigned to us. the cresent group caught up and then, we headed back to the final checkpoint together. they were dang retarded la. we saw them chasing after the bus from afar and they thought we didn't see us so they hid on the bus and hoped that we thought it was the wrong bus and will start panicking and go to another bus stop or something. could see that they looked really disappointed that we got on.
the last checkpoint was rather far away from the mrt station. my team were quite far ahead and thus, we managed to clear our task faster, with skill. so overall, my team won!! we waited for the girls at the church, wanted to cheer for them but after some discussion, we decided to fool them. so, we ran up the slope, just when the girls reach the church, we will try to overtake them and then declare again that we were the champion. heh, sometimes guys can be so revengeful and childish i know. that make us guys, full or pride and stuff. glad that i got 30 dollars voucher from swensons. brought my family out to eat the next day. my grandmother was really happy that day and so, we are going to plan for another ice cream trip at haagen daz. yummy!!
and in case u were wondering how come im at home, well, its another story. to cut the long story short, its a really bad day. argh
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