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Friday, May 01, 2009
i tried to convince myself that its over and not think about it, guess what, i suceeded like 5 seconds after my paper. it ain't that hard, no point saying that i could have done better if i studied more. lets face it, its a fact and i screwed up but its OVER!! didn't have the excuse of last sem, whereby i really did my best. sometimes in life effort doesn't have a direct proportionality with results or i hope it does have an indirect relation, if that's the case i'll probably aced it. hah
feels great to be out in the streets, all dressed up and without a tinge of guilt that im not studying. movie was great, had a great company. i thought x men would have more actions but overall it was still worth watching. kinda realised something really strange but i shall not say anything here. we went far east to shop after that, there wasn't any guys stuff there so i was just following the girls around looking for heels.
had to rush down to bradell for dinner for cherylene's bday dinner but we ended up bickering instead. some things really dun change over the years. oh well, it was quite a good meet up though. how ironic eh?
had to rush to cityhall to meet sockie for mambo night. brea didn't managed to get me in so i had to pay for entrance fee. he was just standing 3 mins away from the entrance so i was quite sian diao. mambo night was strange, not much pple were dancing. those who know how to dance were already on the platform. i felt quite dumb doing the moves so i decided to go back to phuture. is that how u spell it? ah well.. think my capacity for alcohol increased. drank abit more than usual, in fact like 2 times more than my usual visits and stil feeling okie.
back at home, i felt completely drained but still had some energy left so i decided to call eueu to talk awhile. it was after like 5 mins before i felt the weariness creeping in. what a way to end an exam. woot!
the next day went out with eu dar candice yang jinyu for some martini thingy but it was full so we had a change of plans. was really excited to see them after so long. it was really cool chilling at timbre, sat there, talk abit, drink abit, eat abit, slack abit. i didn't talk much, the sky was beautiful that day, the moon together with the spotlight shining on the trees. this combination created quite a mesmorising landscape. i just sat there for really long, listening to the music and enjoying the presense of my friends. some of the conversations were quite revolting, i felt uncomfortable by how the world behaves. being sheltered allowed me to live in a world that seems beautiful and lovely. as one grows older, the world that we live in expands and we walk away from the source of light, drawing nearer to the darkness. its up to us really, whether do we venture into the darkness just as we are or do we carry a torchlight with us.
beginning to let God take control of my life, beginning to let the part of me dies off since at the end of the day it amounts to nothing. it feels great to not think about so many things and just follow someone wholeheartedly. no matter what difficulties i faced, i know i can walk through it because with light, darkness cannot be there. friendship sometimes can be so frivolous. i hate to admit that friends do really come and go, relationships too. however the case, i know there's still people that i can count on.
things are getting abit weird, abit too hard for me to handle. i hate the feeling of being caught in the middle or maybe i'm not. dun like the feeling of getting one sided or is it 2? arghh
mum just left my room, she was telling me about how the situation at her workplace improved. it was an answered prayers for me, not only that, God did more than usual again. i wanted to tell my mum how good God is but i know she knows it too. she's seen changes at home, she' seen changes in my dad's workplace, she's seen changes with my grandma for awhile. all these things are real, if it happens one, perhaps its a coincidence, twice perhaps just lucky. thrice, luck? think again!!
mum always teach me how to be nice to people eventhough they maytreat u otherwise. be patient with them, God knows what u have been through, He'll deliver u someday. she will swallow her pride, swallow all her resentment in office. its a good thing that she'll wait for me to come home every week to complain and tell me stuff. i dun want her to bottle everything inside of her. that's how my family works, we share every single detail of our lives.
a few things had been sorted out since i last had a major breakdown. trying to look at things from another angle, i wonder how it will work out. a bad investments will result in a loss so i need to be careful. at the same time i know that without risks, turnover rate will be relatively low. even using hidden markov's model, its futile because the probabilities of such is limitless. trial and error is the only way out and that sucks, so is life. walk on.
+++11:37 PM+++
Jesus is Love
i tried to convince myself that its over and not think about it, guess what, i suceeded like 5 seconds after my paper. it ain't that hard, no point saying that i could have done better if i studied more. lets face it, its a fact and i screwed up but its OVER!! didn't have the excuse of last sem, whereby i really did my best. sometimes in life effort doesn't have a direct proportionality with results or i hope it does have an indirect relation, if that's the case i'll probably aced it. hah
feels great to be out in the streets, all dressed up and without a tinge of guilt that im not studying. movie was great, had a great company. i thought x men would have more actions but overall it was still worth watching. kinda realised something really strange but i shall not say anything here. we went far east to shop after that, there wasn't any guys stuff there so i was just following the girls around looking for heels.
had to rush down to bradell for dinner for cherylene's bday dinner but we ended up bickering instead. some things really dun change over the years. oh well, it was quite a good meet up though. how ironic eh?
had to rush to cityhall to meet sockie for mambo night. brea didn't managed to get me in so i had to pay for entrance fee. he was just standing 3 mins away from the entrance so i was quite sian diao. mambo night was strange, not much pple were dancing. those who know how to dance were already on the platform. i felt quite dumb doing the moves so i decided to go back to phuture. is that how u spell it? ah well.. think my capacity for alcohol increased. drank abit more than usual, in fact like 2 times more than my usual visits and stil feeling okie.
back at home, i felt completely drained but still had some energy left so i decided to call eueu to talk awhile. it was after like 5 mins before i felt the weariness creeping in. what a way to end an exam. woot!
the next day went out with eu dar candice yang jinyu for some martini thingy but it was full so we had a change of plans. was really excited to see them after so long. it was really cool chilling at timbre, sat there, talk abit, drink abit, eat abit, slack abit. i didn't talk much, the sky was beautiful that day, the moon together with the spotlight shining on the trees. this combination created quite a mesmorising landscape. i just sat there for really long, listening to the music and enjoying the presense of my friends. some of the conversations were quite revolting, i felt uncomfortable by how the world behaves. being sheltered allowed me to live in a world that seems beautiful and lovely. as one grows older, the world that we live in expands and we walk away from the source of light, drawing nearer to the darkness. its up to us really, whether do we venture into the darkness just as we are or do we carry a torchlight with us.
beginning to let God take control of my life, beginning to let the part of me dies off since at the end of the day it amounts to nothing. it feels great to not think about so many things and just follow someone wholeheartedly. no matter what difficulties i faced, i know i can walk through it because with light, darkness cannot be there. friendship sometimes can be so frivolous. i hate to admit that friends do really come and go, relationships too. however the case, i know there's still people that i can count on.
things are getting abit weird, abit too hard for me to handle. i hate the feeling of being caught in the middle or maybe i'm not. dun like the feeling of getting one sided or is it 2? arghh
mum just left my room, she was telling me about how the situation at her workplace improved. it was an answered prayers for me, not only that, God did more than usual again. i wanted to tell my mum how good God is but i know she knows it too. she's seen changes at home, she' seen changes in my dad's workplace, she's seen changes with my grandma for awhile. all these things are real, if it happens one, perhaps its a coincidence, twice perhaps just lucky. thrice, luck? think again!!
mum always teach me how to be nice to people eventhough they maytreat u otherwise. be patient with them, God knows what u have been through, He'll deliver u someday. she will swallow her pride, swallow all her resentment in office. its a good thing that she'll wait for me to come home every week to complain and tell me stuff. i dun want her to bottle everything inside of her. that's how my family works, we share every single detail of our lives.
a few things had been sorted out since i last had a major breakdown. trying to look at things from another angle, i wonder how it will work out. a bad investments will result in a loss so i need to be careful. at the same time i know that without risks, turnover rate will be relatively low. even using hidden markov's model, its futile because the probabilities of such is limitless. trial and error is the only way out and that sucks, so is life. walk on.
Jesus is Love