Teacher's Diary

Friday, February 20, 2009

i told my friend yesterday that i will try to blog once every week so as promised, here's one more. we were talking about the importance of informing your friends of what's happening in our lives so in any case when we can't meet up with them, they still pretty much know wads going on.

yesterday after the hall closing, felt abit emotional again cuz of something that i thought i got over with awhile back. so anyway, as usual i wanted to get out of my room in case i turn emo again so i went over to jinyu's room to chill. as we were looking thru the horoscope (it was in chinese so i had abit of problem understanding some of the words).

just a breakdown of wads really accurate. oh btw, im a virgo so whoever's one can refer to mine.. haha.
1) when facing an awkward situation, we will choose to run away because we dunno how to react. we will run away from pple who are close to us and chose to associate with strangers since it doesn't really matter even if we talk to them. so the more important u are to me, the further i will stay away.
2) doesn't like to take initiative. even if we do, soon we'll grow cold again. something like if i ask u out for lunch/ dinner, will only tell u once and hopefully u'll take down and confirm with me on that day.
3) likes to be clean but not necessary tidy
4) once we found someone that we really love, we will stick to that person if u give him enuf security. he will never cheat on u cuz he only has u alone. 2 reasons for that, feel responsible and scared of trouble.
5) detailed, logical and eager to learn. very analytical. is the wisest horoscope. never crap or lie in front of virgos, one look they will be able to tell. dun bother playing mind games with them too, u can't win. they can sell u off and still make u thank them. lastly, dun argue with them, they will come up with some crap just for the sake of winning the arguement.
6) virgos are quite simple minded but not innocent. its hard to guess what they're thinking and most of the time alot if things that happened around them happen cuz for a reason. most of us actually planned for it to happen. but don't worry, we are kind souls who rather get hurt ourselves rather than let our friends get hurt.
7) lack of humor. but if u know us well enuf, u'll discover some really quality jokes.
8) we are not slow, we think alot. when u suggest something to us or tell us something, we are already 5 or 6 steps ahead of u and analysing the situation. we think alot !!
9) we'll run away if things are out of control. in fact, we'll turn emo. but even if we do, we alr know how to get out of that state but waiting for the right moment to get back on our feets. generally, we will not be completely crushed by the things happening around us, will always set a path for us to get out. sometimes appearing emo is just for show, hoping for someone to come to us and pull us out.
10) we are cultured. continually gaining experiences in life and learn from it. since we are emotionally unstable, we seek to do things properly in order to seek a balance in life and strive to be a perfectionist.
11) likes to flirt with normal peeps but helpless when comes to people we love.
12) hope that her friends will be able to read them but yet at the same time we will only reveal the part that we want them to see.
13) responsible but dun like to have too much responsibilities.

thats all for mine. i read other stuff too and i found out something interesting about my friends. good and bad i suppose. so overall, had quite a long htht with jinyu and didn't manage to study much. i hate to be this emotional, really, so easily affected by things around me. its like i've been feeling as tho friends are kind of staying away from me or perhaps keeping a distance. i dun like that feeling, if u have anything to say, just say. dun keep to urself and then start to give me the cold shoulder. really, i dun like it, it hurts!!

here's one more thing that i found out about myself. i am too sheltered, all my life i am super mega ultra uber protected by my parents and by God i think. army suppose to be tough and disgusting and all but eventho i was in a very shiong unit, i had nice friends to do stupid things with, i had good officers who let me do things my way as long as i do it well, i had cool csm and rsm who dotes on me, i had good canteen cooks who da bao stuff for me to go outfield, i had nice outfield experiences whereby i can sleep in peace on a safari bed. i learned how to relate with people, i learn to be independent the easy way. when things go wrong, God backed me up and pulled me through. during tough times He sent people to talk to me and pull me out. my whole life eventho i never been into a long lasting relationship with a girl, i had close friends that i can depend on.

i am not trying to show off or anything but just feel as tho i'm missing a big part of the growing up process. never been into really shitty situations, never been alone, never been totally crushed. i wonder how i am going to get myself out if such things were to happen. well, what are the chances if i were to hold on to God. not that He will prevent such things (he may, of cuz) but i know He will get me out and when im out, i'll be stronger. yay.. God rocks!!

btw, congrats to my buddy QINGYANG!! he gave his life to God yesterday!! WOOO HOOO!!! u know wads the best part, he's coming to my church. its so cool, qingnan and qingyang both same church as me. haha. one down, 9 more to go, can't wait to see what God will do in NOVO.

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