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Wednesday, August 20, 2008
today i just got reminded while watching an anime that u can only be yourself and be willing to be who u are when u are around people that u want to get close with. this semester i tried to dress up more cuz i felt that i should not adapt to the deterioration of dressing from year one onwards. somehow, most people does that because they feel more at home gradually while i on the other hand began to drift away from people i know. this isolation period can clearly be shown by the illustration i mentioned above. subconsciously, when i want to impress, i close up abit more in order to conceal the negative side of me, aka crispy side (cui).
as much as i want to get close to people, i felt that the more i try, the tougher it gets. as i reflect back, i realise that friendship comes naturally if u dun try at all. however, the key thing to make friends is being real and authentic. maybe don't try at all is too extreme, how bout dun try too hard. real friendship comes from acceptance, at least for me. if u can accept me, i dun have to try to impress u, thus i can be real.
i used to expect my closest friends to tell me stuff but actually as time goes by, i got quite bothered by the things that my friend tells me. i became troubled and i don't know if i can handle things anymore. i realise that if u want to tell me something, and u know its not very pleasant and i won't agree with it, then at least show me that u are willing to change before telling me. i don't like the fact that u tell me for the sake of telling me and then refuse to listen to what i got to say and don't want me to say anything because it hurts to know that u are falling and i cannot catch u. don't put me in a situation whereby i can only watch u die in front of me. that's very selfish! okay, i finally let that out. so i just want to apologise for not really talking to u much because i don't know where to start.
DONE.
pageant 2008 is over and i feel kinda sian because i have no excuse to slack and i must study. this semester's workload is horrendous but timetable is quite slack. i need to motivate myself and push myself to study - ahh the agony!
I WANT TO MEET WITH MY PAG FRIENDS (OLD AND NEW)!!!!!!!!
+++8:03 PM+++
Jesus is Love
today i just got reminded while watching an anime that u can only be yourself and be willing to be who u are when u are around people that u want to get close with. this semester i tried to dress up more cuz i felt that i should not adapt to the deterioration of dressing from year one onwards. somehow, most people does that because they feel more at home gradually while i on the other hand began to drift away from people i know. this isolation period can clearly be shown by the illustration i mentioned above. subconsciously, when i want to impress, i close up abit more in order to conceal the negative side of me, aka crispy side (cui).
as much as i want to get close to people, i felt that the more i try, the tougher it gets. as i reflect back, i realise that friendship comes naturally if u dun try at all. however, the key thing to make friends is being real and authentic. maybe don't try at all is too extreme, how bout dun try too hard. real friendship comes from acceptance, at least for me. if u can accept me, i dun have to try to impress u, thus i can be real.
i used to expect my closest friends to tell me stuff but actually as time goes by, i got quite bothered by the things that my friend tells me. i became troubled and i don't know if i can handle things anymore. i realise that if u want to tell me something, and u know its not very pleasant and i won't agree with it, then at least show me that u are willing to change before telling me. i don't like the fact that u tell me for the sake of telling me and then refuse to listen to what i got to say and don't want me to say anything because it hurts to know that u are falling and i cannot catch u. don't put me in a situation whereby i can only watch u die in front of me. that's very selfish! okay, i finally let that out. so i just want to apologise for not really talking to u much because i don't know where to start.
DONE.
pageant 2008 is over and i feel kinda sian because i have no excuse to slack and i must study. this semester's workload is horrendous but timetable is quite slack. i need to motivate myself and push myself to study - ahh the agony!
I WANT TO MEET WITH MY PAG FRIENDS (OLD AND NEW)!!!!!!!!
Jesus is Love